Im a 17 years old high school studen and she's 2 years younger than me. A little background on my girlfriend; She had a boyfriend before but it only last for a month. She loves to party. She's a really cheerful person. Sometimes she's not certain about her mode. We've been together for 2~3 monthes (officially). We broke up 2 times before. First time is that Im being a bit too clingy. Second time she said she just wants to be "friends-with-benifits" with me. Till now, I still dont know what that means but it doesnt matters now.
She's my first girl so Im really looking out for her. I've known her really really well that she doesnt even know. Anyways, here comes the problem, last last friday night she and her friends went to some guy's party and they got really drunk. I've given her hints if she wants me there at the party with her but the sign is a no. I asked her friends how was she at the party? Was she real drunk? what did she do? Who's there? and they only told me that she got real drunk.. I also asked her myself what did she do at the party and she said the same thing. From then on, I have a feeling that she's lying to me and not being honest with me. Like I said before, I really known her well. The thing is that.. yesterday she finally told me that she's keeping something away from me. I asked her what and she told me that she kissed a guy (21 years old) at the party. I asked her why she answers she was drunk and the guy just keep giving her drinks. Then the guy just kissed her. I asked if you kissed him back she said no. but im really doubting that since she's already not being honest with me from the first place! I got really frustrated and all I can think of is just leave. My point of view is that she can stop that from happening and she could have bring me to the party with her but she didn't.. I knew something like this would happen so Im not really supprised. Right now Im really sad and upsad; She's being really disrespectful to me and our relationship. After the talk, I left her alone at the movie theater at 12 in the morning because she's not even being serious when we're having the conversation. So, I just took off and she keeps calling me and said she's sorry and please come back. She doesnt have a ride and Im the one that biked her there so she really needs me to take her home. Plus she's afraid to walk home herself because the street's pretty dark.
Sign... Its 4 am in the morning and I cant fall asleep. She called me 3 times and her friends also called me but i didnt pick them up until the last call. I answered and all she said is "f**k you ***hole" and hang up. I was expacting she would show up at my door and try to work things out but she didn't.
I've given her so many chances of being back together with me when we broke up in the begining of the year. But all I can see is that she's not making an effort in our relationship. I love her with my life and I really want this relationship to work. I really do. Everyday she's been on my mind since I woke up in the morning till when I go back to sleep at night. I really dont know what to do right now. Should I break up with her? Should I wait for her to come back to me ? Should I just not talk to her? Please.. I really need some thoughts!