Hahaha. Alright, so my father was just committed to the mental hospital for being insane and suicidal last night. Well, I don't think he would have done it, but he had a gun and it looked like he was going to do it - so I guess everyone believed him
You can look through my old posts and find the thread about how my father was cheating on my mother. She found out and basically wanted a divorce - she wanted one before she found out. And he asked for six months to "make it up to us". He said he broke off his affair, despite that I believe he was still in the affair. He pulled a perfect dad routine, trying to for a couple weeks. But he and my mother still had their fights - my mother is intelligent, its hard not to be with two harvard degrees - she knew that divorce was going to be the product of all of this. So she'd ask him what the point of doing the six months was. Why couldn't they just be honest? Lay the money out on the table and figure out how to get divorced.
My father, intelligent, but too absorbed in his emotions to make intelligent decisions, snapped last night. He got a gun and asked my mother if, with the life insurance, she could support the kids, send us all to the prep school we're going to, and send us to whatever college we wanted to. She said yes, and he pulled out a gun, cocked the trigger, and left to our detached garage - essentially his office. Someone called the police and he was brought to the hospital.
The thing is, I'm far past the emotional stage. But I need to understand why. My father is clinically depressed, he always has been. I need to understand his life and his affair if I am ever going to understand myself. I've always had an empty feeling inside of me - no matter what - I think it may come from him. But I don't want to be like him.