So let me start off by saying that I have been with my fiance for 4 years and we have been engaged about 5 months. I have cheated on her about 4 times and fully accept that its totally wrong and you guys can call me all the names you want...because I call myself these names as well. At first I was very much in love with her but I also feel that she wears the pants in the relationship and she runs the show. I am also starting to feel that this "marriage" thing is a business contract with her and while I enjoy my time with her very much...I just dont think I am ready to do this. We are scheduled to be married July 30th of this year and honestly thinking about it is making me insane.
We have a lot invested in this wedding already and I feel that our relationship is now about the stupid wedding and not about US anymore. So far we have 2000 dollars invested in the reception hall, 500, for the minister, her wedding dress is hanging up in the other room, a DJ, 500 glowsticks, and a place setting for michael jackson...there is a lot invested in this and we live together as well with a dog. Should I just go through with this and just not tell her about anything or do I need to break this off...im seriously freaking out right now. And your brutal honesty is appreciated. Thank you.