I was with this amazing guy back in 2007/2008. We were both teenagers, very happy & we were in love. We were even planning on getting married & building our lives together. Well, to make sure this isn't one big, mile-long paragraph I'm going to put it in a nutshell. Since I literally have no [emotional] backbone, this idiot came between us and basically broke us up. I turned up pregnant with my boyfriend's child. Three weeks after I found out I was pregnant, he moved across the country & I never saw him again.
There was a huge battle about who my son's father was and it literally ripped us apart even more. I proved them all wrong & it belonged to him & not really the idiot's, but that's a different story. He was my best friend for 2 1/2 years, & we were together 10 months, completely inseparable. I was even his first KISS. And everything else.
& then he left.
He didn't leave on his own free will, though. so keep that in mind; He was still a teenager & ... *sigh* She met this man off the internet & she moved across the country to be with him; & since my baby's dad had nowhere else to go, he was forced to drop out of high school & go with her. It's a very, very ugly situation.
My side of the situation is that the guy is still across the country after 2 years. 2 very long miserable years for me. I could count the times on one hand that I have talked to him since he left. And of course, acting with my instincts, when I would talk to him I cried about how badly I missed him, he needs to be here with his son, etc etc etc.
Well, the rumor is that he is supposed to be coming back home in a few months, and I honestly have no idea how to react. I've had false alarms of him coming back, & once I figured out that this time is the real deal, I am totally lost at what to do. I would give anything in the world for him to come back here so we could be a family.
I want to show him how sorry I am. I want him back, but I think he already has the hint, so I am definitely not pushing that one any further. I'm not expecting to just go to sleep one night, wake up & everything be honky-dory again. I have a beautiful 14 month old son that has never met his father. & that kills me because all of this could have been prevented.
I need some love advice; I have tried everything in the book to get over him. But nothing worked. & now I'm at the point I'm not going to get over him. I mean, I look at it like this; it's been 2 years, & I'm still in as much pain as I was when he left. So since I'm at this point, I may as will either sink or swim when he comes back.
It hurts because everyone around me thinks that he will come around & we will get back together. I don't know if that could possibly be a sign in my favor? But I'm so afraid of believing it because I don't want to get my hopes crushed more than what they already are.
So I was wondering if anyone out there has any tips to show how sorry I am & how I want [so badly] to start over? At least on a friendly level for my son's sake. But honestly, I'd love to have him back in my life as well.
Thank you :]