Hi all, this could be long and complex but I will try and summarise but I really need your help and hand holding ;-(
Summary:
I met this girl 5 years ago got together she fell pregnant after 6 months and we had a son he is my world. We split up after 6 months of him being around I was not a catch and good for no one so best I left it was hard but right to do. Instantly my life got better I was always there for her and him and our relationship as exes were good
I did my thing she did too after 18 months the penny dropped I was missing something and it was her and my son in a solid family relationship so set about getting her back and it took me 4 months but I managed it. She was starting to see an ex of 10 years back the brother of her best mate but I managed to make her see her babies dad was the right thing for us and her.
We lasted 3 months or so I trusted her but ow regret I did. It wasn't a big split more of why am I sleeping on the floor and living out of a bag when I had my own place. No time in 5 years have I ever said I didn't love her.
So we had a holiday booked and still went on it things happened night one but I instigated it so left it to her from then on but she didnt. After she said she wanted stuff to happen but she didnt try for it.
Anyway before we went she said when we get back we won't talk as much thought it was weird but didnt think anything of it. I paid for the holiday so was free for her. We got back and it was how it was before see her and my son weds and weekends.
She came round to get my son and told me she was back with him and wants to introduce him to my son. I laugh and said ok I new u would go back to him. But honestly never in my wildest dreams did I think she would and I was putting things in place to get things back on track this was oct/no and had offered her and her mum to come to Xmas which she didnt
Things got messy I asked her not to see this guy (brother of her best mate also). I don't like him he is a drunk and always said I didn't like him. Anyway since oct I been trying but nothing I do works. I want her and my son as a family and more kids as a unit not step brothers/sisters
She talks in riddles says its too late she lost feelings for me then asks to see me but uses my son as a shield. She does not reply to my text but I have to reply to her. I had Xmas with my son and even till the last day I offered her to come and said no. What mum would not want to be with her son on his first real Xmas?
Boxing Day she had him and this new fella for a family meal even though I said I was not happy and NYE also was hard. She doesn't talk just goes silent. She says stuff like what I should just get back with you. Then says its too late but never says I'm with someone else or I love him or do one to me. I try and convince her what is best well I ask her but it means nothing. I'm the father of her son. I no her friends family are all against me. What can I do. I'm depressed and very emotional and can't move on as I can't let go of my family I wanted the woman I love. I have to see her also. It's so hard.
I want her back but no I can't get her back..I want to move on as it seems to be everyone's easy answer but I'm struggling to move on.
Help please :-( x