I can't hate him?Was it love at all ? Or I am a fool?

[Neena]

He did hurt me and he is an asshole. I know that.I don't wanna get back to him, I really don't.
But, I can't really hate him. I still care for him.
It makes me ask:
1) if either it wasnt love or just killing loneliness
2) am I that kind of person that can't really hate.Which goes to another question: Is it good?

I personally always thought that hate isn't needed in our hearts and if we can continue with , finding a little reason to understand others we will make a favor firstly to us , I don't know if we make a favor to them.
All I can say to myself is he is a psyho, which I want still in my life so he can laugh at my jokes and be jealous if he is with other person at certain moments, but saying after :poor girls

What do you think?

[Gigabitch]

I'll bet it's like this for people who are trying to quit smoking. You hate cigarettes, you know they're bad for you and make you smell horrible. You don't like the dirty looks people give you and lighting up a smoke makes you feel like trailer trash but you just can't help yourself.

Sound about right?