Ex broke up with me 3 months ago - she "didn't have those feelings for me"...(posted about this before).
Anyhow - got sporadic texts every now and then, "hope you ok", "want to chat online" blahh. For my part, i was pretty NC - got into a chat with her about 3 weeks ago (on her request) but she was really cold/distant, so i didn't respond after (i was really pissed at myself and her for how she was "chatting" to me).
So last week get a text from her asking "do you completely hate me? sent you a message online". So i go to look (yeah...i was hoping for an apology) but there's no message but she's online for a chat. I log out - get another text "if you don't want to chat to me i wish you'd just say...goodbye".
Well, i go online, tell her that i didn't see no message - she said it must have expired (could be true) but i didn't press any further on it - i just didn't want to have a moaning chat about how rude she was before etc. So i was on there for like 5 mins, talking about general stuff, she did the same, i was at work so cut it short and said bye. She was all polite.
I know i'm reading into this way too much but on her name/tag there was this link to music video. Never asked her about it but it was this love song - all about lost love, making mistakes, wishing everything could change....she is this real emotional girl (and i know the reasons why) but i find it very strange it on there...Oh man, i'm dreaming it's for me but i know it can't be - but she's so insecure about opening up, i was too chicken to ask because, well after all that's happened, i don't want any more pain. But if you don't love someone, why all the drama of "you hate me", letting me know she's listening to all these weepy love songs....
I just don't get it...but maybe i do...because she's got me thinking about her again...
Wishy-washy ex is turning me into some wishy-washy love-struck fool...when i keep my distance i get, "why you not talking to me", but if she wants to angle to reconcile why doesn't she just say...she broke up with me!!!