My ex broke up with me a little after Valentines Day after being together close to 3 years and being close friends before that for another 2 years. We met our freshman year of college and instantly became very close. By our Junior year of college we were dating and soon living together and things were great. After graduating she moved back home with her parents and I went on to law school and there was 4 hours distance now between us.
Things were fine my first semester of law school, we didn't get to see each other a ton (about every other weekend) but when we did times were great. We spent New Years together and had a blast. After that we had numerous visits but didn't really do a ton together other than lay in bed and hang out or go to the occasional bar. I went down to visit her for Valentines Day and things suddenly felt different. We still went on a couple dates and movies during that weekend but things were just off. About a week later I got a text from her saying we needed to talk. She told me that she thought I didn't treat her how she felt she should be treated and that she couldn't take the distance. Now I'll admit I made asshole comments from time to time but I would have killed for her and she knew that. I never cheated on her or betrayed her in any way, I just made comments occasionally usually having to do with other girls. Our relationship also became largely about sex since I was coming from the high stress environment of law school and just needed a release.
At first she just wanted a "break" with no contact for a week. After that week she said things hadn't changed and she felt the same and just needed some "space." I did my best to give her space but in the end ended up fighting like hell for her. I wrote her a hand written letter in which I reminisced about all of our great times and sent her flowers. Eventually I found out she met someone at work and has been hanging out with them a lot. I also found out through Facebook that they apparently are now sleeping together as well which kills me because she moved on to him within days. We spoke so much of marriage and a future after I was finished law school and all of a sudden she seems to not even care about what we were. She said she'd sit down and talk to me this summer face to face (2 months from now) but I just feel like by that time she'll have completely moved on.
I have also sent her a second letter in which I really opened up about my family life growing up (wasn't great and my parents are divorced) and really figuring out why I would say such asshole comments from time to time. It was really good therapy for me and I had never opened up that much before. She should be receiving that letter Thursday.
I've written an email now which I really don't want to send her but I feel I will have to after she most likely negatively responds to my second letter. In the email I talk about two memories one of which is how I helped her get through her cousins suicide, the other had to do with our future after I finished law school. The letter though ends with the following
I feel I’ve really shown how much I loved and cared about you and you’ve definitely shown how much you loved and cared about me. You’re a very ugly person and in the end your true colors have shown. I have no mean words to say to you because I’ve become completely indifferent to you. I don’t know who you are anymore and you mean absolutely nothing to me now.
What sucks though is she still means everything to me even though she's seemingly moved on so quickly.
I could really use someones reply please