I've read the post by bohemiandonut and already felt much relieved. I'm doing everything I can now to heal from my breakup and I hate to admit that there's nothing I can do to hasten the process except to let time do it's magic on me.
My girl... was everything good and everything bad to me. We're both medical students and its enough that we're tied down by work but now we're torn apart by distance because we ended up in different universities. She and I gets really busy with clinical rotations and night shifts but nevertheless I think about her all the time. She promised she would wait for me, I warned her that the journey is going to be tough and meandering but she promised not to give up, so I believed her... but now I feel like a complete idiot.
It's barely been a month being apart from each other and she dumped me. I could still remember her promises so vividly and it hurts me even more to know that, like what donut said, "she's somewhere out there high-fiving with her friends thanking God that I didn't call"...
I sacrificed so much for her... I almost failed my exams... bah! I'll spare you the boring details but instead, this is what I get.
I didn't call her or send her any emails anymore because I know she'll be happier without me.
I always thought at this point of my life I would be wiser in choosing partners but I guess I'm still an immature kid. I don't know why I trusted her, I don't know why I let her do that to me, I loved her, but all she had for me was only infatuation...
I feel like I've been cheated. Yet when she dumped me I couldn't even get myself to raise my voice even though I was filled with rage, I just smiled and let her go.
It feels lonely studying in a foreign place and i just needed a place to vent my sadness... But if anybody could suggest anything to anaesthetize the pain, I would gladly hear it. There are some pain medicine can't treat.