Zekk,
We have had this convo before and I agree with Killa.. you are indeed embarking on that step. It seems that even the best relationships, even tho based on good intentions, may never lead to what you want to get out of them. I think before you can even think about a relationship, there are things within yourself that need to be delt with and sorted out.
Relationships are hard enough to handle without intmacy issues. You are a sweet and kind man with a heart of gold. I hope for your sake to achieve your long standing dreams of children, that you can over come this obstical that holds you back from exploring the true and nurturing you. I know from experience how kind hearted and sensitive you are. Once you deal with your so called."character flaw", which I dont believe is a flaw at all, I hope that you will freely open your heart to a person who will let you be you and protect you from the hidden walls you say you love to hide behind. Just remember, love is a regret when the risk isnt taken.
"Remember always, that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one."
- - Eleanor Roosevelt
" It's not who we are that holds us back, it's who we think we're not."
- - Michael Nolan
"...to love and lose, is better than not to love at all..." .... Lord, whats his name....
" The world is big... I want to see all of it before it gets dark." -- John Muir