I'm new here and this is my first post. I've never thought of using something like this but really don't know what else to do and think it might help. Here's the deal: my boyfriend and I have been dating for about a year and I recently found out he's used the site tnaboard.com in order to hook up with girls. I'm painfully disturbed by this. He did it before we met so I don't know how I should react to it. I found out about this on my own and he doesn't know that I know so I can't talk to him about it. Had he told me, it may have been different. From what I can gather from his posts on that site, it seems like he's only received blow jobs but who knows. He wrote reviews on how great the girls were, recommending them to others and stating he would use them again. We all have our pasts we may be ashamed of and don't like to talk about (I'm guilty of scandalous acts too) but nothing like this. He was living in Seattle at the time and is now in Wyoming so he has little to no access to something like that and I'm not too worried about him doing it again, I'm just disgusted he did it in the first place. I don't even know what I'm asking for, I think I just need to tell someone. I don't want to talk to my family (obviously) and we have a lot of the same friends so I don't want to tell them to save him the embarrassment. I'm disgusted by him doing something like but I also (in a way I can't even begin to explain) feel sorry for him. I wish he would talk to me about it and say some cliche like "I was in a dark place" or something, to make it better. I just want the feeling in my throat like I'm going to cry to go away and would kind of like to eat something as it's made me more or less sick for the last two days.