"I walked away last week. I've walked away before. But I'm always drawn back to him. I text, email or call and it all starts over again. As it stands now, I ended it. "
So you leave him, and you've left him before . . . but then you come back, and you've come back before . . . do you see how your word and your actions means virtually nothing since you don't follow up on them.
could you describe those other times? hopefully they will shed light into how you're inconsistent
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