Hi everyone. This is just an update on what's going on (read sad notes and different note).
The guy and I spoke four days ago. I can sense that he was mad at me and that's why he didn't return any of my calls.
That's was the last time we spoke. So, I called him today and left a nice "how are you doing" message. I don't think he will return any of my calls... again.
I don't know why I do this to my self. I seem to fall for the wrong guys (assholes). I really want to get over this dude. I tried going out, keeping myself busy... but he is always on my mind. I don't even want to meet new people. I don't wanna go through this pain anymore. It's worst when I'm by myself. I swear if there was some type of memory eraser device I'd be the first one to buy it.
I don't know what to do. It's messing with my days and nights. I can't sleep because I'm up hoping he will call. I can't function right.
I just deleted his number from my phone book, and I hope that will help a little. If he doesn't return my call then I know there is no way I can call him... Even if I get the urge.
The really messed up thing about is I don't know what I did to him. He won't tell me at all. I think that's bothering me the most. We went from hanging out and loving each other's company, to him not wanting to talk to me anymore. I am going on a men strike.