I’ve always been a very reliable and trustworthy person. Married a man I dated for 4 years and faithful for 27 years until my husband passed away. After that, dated men but one in particular for several years. Even though I love him I’ve looked for others on and off. Sometimes I dated others and we broke up and other times I still looked and went on dates even though we were "together". I couldn’t stop myself even though I hated myself for doing it. I can’t explain why other than I was looking for someone more financially compatible than the bf who only has a small amount saved retirement and a modestly paid job.
I’m ashamed but I can’t stop myself. I can’t go on like this. First I know it’s not right. Second my bf wants to live with me NOW and he wants to know I’m 100% committed but I can’t say I am if I’ve behaved like I’ve been, right?
Do you think it’s because I’m afraid it be alone and afraid to let go? Should I let him go and if I find the “right” person I wouldn’t feel this way? Maybe I can’t endure losing someone I love again so I’m avoiding commitment to either? Please reply if you have advice to offer and thanks.
+ Follow This Topic
Results 1 to 3 of 3
Thread: How did I get here??
-
15-01-18, 11:10 PM #1
Normal User
- Country:
- Join Date
- Jan 2018
- Gender
- Posts
- 2
How did I get here??
-
16-01-18, 01:22 AM #2
Normal User
- Country:
- Join Date
- Jan 2018
- Gender
- Posts
- 58
It's Limpy again.
-
16-01-18, 05:30 AM #3
Normal User
- Country:
- Join Date
- Feb 2017
- Gender
- Posts
- 1,769
I think you don’t love anyone
You just want to be with someone and call that need love
