Truth is I have told her I wanted to be with her only two weeks ago the week after we spent a weekend together. She said she couldn't and we should just be friends.
Im not racking my brain whether I want to be with her or not, I DO want to be with her. BUT on the other hand after she told me that I couldnt just sit around waiting for her. Yeah I kissed that girl at the club but thats only because I thought she only wanted to be friends and I had to accept that. It's only now after that extreme reaction that I realise she may actually have feelings for me now.
I know i am better now because I have solved all the problems I had whilst I was with her and even she has seen it/and said it since we have spent some time together.
Anyway I have decided that either today (fri in UK) or sometime this weekend I am going to try and talk to her in person and just put it out there one last time. Ill just say im sorry for hurting her and the misunderstanding last weekend but I want to be with her and work things out IF she can forgive me. If not we will have to cut contact and she cant keep reacting the way she did last week for me trying to move on with my life.
If anyone thinks this is the right or wrong thing to do then please let me know. Else im just gonna go for it!