I don't feel like I am interested in even trying anymore. I get nothing but disappointment one after another after another. The internet is a bad means anymore even though that's the only way I ever seem to. I live a very isolated life - commuting with work and being a teacher. I like what I do for the most part careerwise it's just a rat race. But that's another matter... I just feel like I have to accept certain facts now. I am too old now. Someone said to me I am an old maid recently. That hurt me. And I can't get past it. A friend from my college years said I will never marry or have kids and ... I am afraid she was right even though I've tried. I want to be with someone but no one wants me I guess. I just have to accept it and move on.