Mentally Unstable

[Junket]

Look, I'll tell you guys no more than I've told my closest friend.

Basically, I'm in trouble with the authorities over something that happened almost a decade ago (as in not recent).

So that's why my life is on hold, that's why my VISTA job has gone to shit, that's why I can't commit to Amy right now as much as I should and want to.

I don't know how this is all gonna turn out, and I don't know when it's gonna turn out. I've done, and I do as much as I can from my position as possible, but a lot of it has me waiting around for an answer from this or that person and answers don't come frequently, and they rarely actually answer any of my questions.

I've always been a person to look to the future, and not the past, and that's why this is so difficult. What's also frustrating is that the "issue" they're so focused on doesn't even come close to the core problem of it all.

Not even close.

I'm caught trying to live as "normally" as I can, trying to hide what's going on the best I can from the people who don't really need to know about it, all while trying to prepare for what may come.

I'm up some days, and I'm way down other days. Sometimes all within the hour.

This is has been my life since early November.

I'm frustrated, depressed, angry and rightfully so.

[Junket]

I just talked to my brother.

I feel so much better now.

I'm sorry I'm spouting all this shit, but I have to do it to stay sane.

Believe me when I say it too, because I'm not one to overreact, and this situation is that serious.

I'm gonna try to keep the majority of these kinds of posts here in this thread.

Like I said before, you guys don't have to read or reply to them, I understand there's nothing you guys really understand, it's just something I feel the need to do.

[vashti]

I wish I could be helpful, but since I can't, I hope writing it makes you feel better.

[Zach]

Same here. There really isn't anything we can do except keep you company, and Im glad to do just that for you.

[Junket]

I wish I could be helpful, but since I can't, I hope writing it makes you feel better.

I 'preciate it Vash.

I really do.

You guys been great, always been here for me.

Like the family I can take with me anywhere, so long as I have an internet connection.

[anachronistic]

Like the family I can take with me anywhere, so long as I have an internet connection.

an equal analogy with pornsites;

a slut you can take with you anywhere, just as long as you have an internet connection