untitled again

[squirrley]

One day I'm up and one day I'm down
I have less smiles and more frowns
i really dont want to be in this place
i want to get up and see a happy face
i've been down a bad path before
i wont allow myself to do that anymore
i know what i feel is nothing like before
i've accepted it cant be anything more
this isnt a pattern of hanging on to them
the last relationship was a has been
i never thought id carry these feelings for so long
seeing him now blew my heart away is that wrong
i want to know its okay to feel sad
never wanted someone and then feel bad
in my mind i will have moved on
but in my heart i will always long
i have put myself back where i should be
i dont have to have him he created that need
i will be fine moving on with my life
there maybe bad days but only slight
i can admit i was the rat caught in a trap
eventually i realized and grabbed the map
i can admit i was the fly stuck on the sticky stuff
but i wiggled free because i knew i was strong enough
now i feel like i am a cocoon just ready
to come out free, confident, and steady
if this has taught me one thing in my journey
i've learned God has my back and I'm still learning...


ok-remember these were written months ago, and i havent written since, just a way to vent, did it for about 2 weeks and that's it. Not in an emotional state like that anymore,

Innova thats why you keep them, you can look back and go "oh thank God I'm NOT there anymore!"

[Innova]

Beautiful.

I don't have a journal, but I do keep my Poetry, I have since the age of 13.

[squirrley]

good thing....
i dont have a journal either....
i've only written a few things, but it helped for the meantime

i dont know how long i'll keep my stuff, but for now, i reflect, and maybe in a few weeks i'll have some more....
then again i hope not....
you've got some great poetry Innova...i'm really impressed by your ability to put it out they way you do...

[jane]

I love to write ... I have kept a journal since I was 13. I have alot of poetry too.. Innova you have a gift my man. I hope you are planning on seriously using it.. you should become a writer!

Squirrley.. that was beautiful girl! Keep sharing your poetry!

[squirrley]

thanks sweetie, but no more from this girl...
my stuff is low key compared to ya'lls!!

[Innova]

Yeah, I'm trying to become a writer, and thank you for your wonderful thoughts torwards my poetry. Least I know they are good now lol.

Squirrley, just remember girl... poetry from within, no matter who its from...is never low key.

[squirrley]

see i knew there was a reason why i liked you so much...

[Innova]

[jane]

Your words are like windows you cant hide behind when it comes to poetry.. Innova.. you know that.

Squirrley.. your the bomb baby.. I love ya!

[Innova]

Thanks Jane, means alot

I just write to whatever my heart beats too, its rythmic to my emotions.

[BillyGalbreath]

OMG !

That hit me sooooo close to home... Look at me... Now I am crying again

This is a very good poem squirrley. There are a few lines that I absolutely loved and hit me the hardest...

"...
in my mind i will have moved on
but in my heart i will always long
...
if this has taught me one thing in my journey
i've learned God has my back and I'm still learning...
..."

Amazing !

[squirrley]

Thanks Billy!

See WHY I said we write the same...

[BillyGalbreath]

Yeah... its kinda freaky LOL

[squirrley]

Funny how emotions or feelings can come out like nothing on paper...

I so need to write about the good things that happen damnit!!
Got lots of those for ONCE!!

[BillyGalbreath]

nothing good happens to me lately