I'm sorry for this long rant. I just want to know if there is anyone out there who is kind, loving, a hopeless romantic, 100% loyal, fun-loving, someone who is looking for absolute and total love, and perfect honesty from a relationship?
I am that man, and I had found all the things that I was looking for, the absolutely perfect relationship and perfect girl. And now she is dead. She is the first true love of my life, and during our 21 months together I made sure that each and every single day I'd tell her how much I love her and appreciate her and be happy because I had her.
And now there is just pain and a gaping hole in my chest and I don't know where to turn or what to do and all I can do is miss her and cry.
I'd like to know that there's at least someone else out there like me, and if so how they are handling it. I'm so along and I miss her and the prospect of another woman in my life makes me sick to my stomach. I feel like a great part of me has died.
If you're going to tell me "get over her" or "life goes on" or "you'll find someone else", please don't. The love I have for her is not something that I can just get over, and I don't even think I'd want to.
Sorry for being so long.