i have been in love with my best friend since i was 15, i am now 23.
she is my best friend, and i dont think we could be closer. i never said anything because she always had a love interst, because i was scared, and felt like i didn't have a chance. it was your typical "guy falls in love with his best friend"
she got married right after graduation. we had some problems towards the end or senior year, we stopped talking, and the last time we talked i told her how i felt. it didnt matter but atleast she knew, and a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders.
noone knows her the way i do, not even today. i know every detail of her life and still love her, eventhough she has a dark past.
we didn't talk for 2yrs, then we started talking again, and it was as if nothing had happened, we went back to being the best of friends, except she now knew how i felt.
she wants to be happy, eventhough its hard, because she feels like her family and her huband will never understand the way she is and the things she has done and why. she loves her husband and family, and i really do hope that one day she wont have to worry about being open with them she has told me that noone loves her the way i do, and noone accepts her the way i do.
my biggest fear is that i will never stop loving her, and that my heart will always hurt. i am afraid everytime i think of how long i have thought about her, and loved her. what should i do? how much am i gonna be able to take before i can't stand this sadness inside of me any longer? whay do i love her? what is the purpose of me loving her if she will never be mine?[/B]