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Okay, I just went out for a walk in my forest and I'm decided now. I have to break up with my girlfriend. I don't know where to start though.
Here's the situation:
- We have been together for a year
- She absolutely loves me
- She is emotionally dependent
- She has an history of severe depression (with suicide attempts and self injury) prior to meeting me
- She lives in a different country
- I met her entire family and they love me. Her parents have been extremely generous to me. They paid half of my plane ticket when I visited her and they invited me to their next summer holiday. They will think that I used her and them just to travel to their country.
- She has one year left to do in University, she is supposed to move with me after that.
- She is visiting me for a month at the end of summer
- When she had doubt about our relationship in the past (fearing that I could leave her), I lied to her and said everything was perfect.
- I promised her a lot of things about our future.
- She will do everything she can to stay with me after I tell her it's over (e-mails, letters, phone calls)
- I'm 100% sure that the end of our relationship will send her back into depression. In the best scenario, she drops university for a year and takes a long time to recover. In the worst case, she commits suicide. While her depression history has nothing to do with me, the guilt would make me miserable for the rest of my life.
It it better to break up before she visits me, or after? I can't imagine pretending that we are in love for an entire month. I can pay the fees for the plane ticket cancellation. I think I should also payback her parents for the other plane tickets.
What would be the least awful way to break up? It seems to me that no matter what I do and how I do it, I'm going to be the jerk in this story. I also wonder what should happen after, should I try to remain her friend to make sure she comes out of this alive (it could make things worst though) or be a coward and cut all communications?
I'm the one who got dumped in my last relationship. My ex's way of doing this was to slowly and steadily reduce the time we spent on the phone or together while pretending everything was normal. It started with 2 or 3 days without contact and ended with 2 entire week.. I can't imagine doing that myself.