scared alone and broken

[mrfootball]

It sounds like she's almost like a drug for you that you can't seem to give up. Well, drugs are bad (most of them anyway).

Yeah it sometimes feels like she is a drug. When Im with her some of the time its great but most of the time its difficult. But as soon as I dump her or lose her I get withdrawl and feel a despreat need to contact her.

Im like I said afraid of what if this is the one and Im giving that up.
But Im also afraid of what if she isnt and we keep trying and failing for years to come.

[IndiReloaded]

Dude, go read the 'Soulmate' thread (do a search). It will make you feel better.

You are more right than you know. She feels like a drug b/c it IS drugs (brain chemicals) that are making you feel miserable. I am quite serious about this. We've all been there, hun. Go. Read that thread, you'll learn something and be better for it.

[mrfootball]

Its just so hard even if we both know its probably for the best. Im suppose to be reading for a final exam in my worst subject, and my head is ****ed and Im a mess and I cant focus

Im 2 steps from crying and feel this rage in me I just wanna punch the wall.

[mrfootball]

But also like my friend said, if I keep going back and forth and in this mess, I wont be there when he right one comes along. But right now I feel like punching the walls and just go abeshit on everything.

my heart is ****ed and head is a mess.

When we both knew this isnt working and break up, why the fck is it still so hard.

[mrfootball]

Im so * * * * ed today, I can focus, I cant read for my final exam. Im just wanna grab a the chair and throw it out of the window.

I keep listing to blue october - into the ocean

It just says everything Im feeling.

Im just so sad, angry, alone, mad, crying now and just feel like smashing everything

[IndiReloaded]

Go for a run outside. Or do some jumping jacks and pushups inside if the weather is bad. You need to blow off the hormones w/some steam. It will help. Go.

[mrfootball]

Pleas someone tell what to do, Im so lost and angry and ****ed in my head.

[mrfootball]

ok 100 pushups done, ok I feel a little better, not crying now.

[IndiReloaded]

Repeat, as needed hun.

And haaaay... 100 pushups! Hubba, hubba!

[mrfootball]

hahaha, I needed that, actually got me to laugh. didnt think I would even crack a smile to dat

[IndiReloaded]

You're gonna be alright.

[mrfootball]

Lets hope so, I guess this is something everyone has to experience. Mabey I should consider my self lucky, to have had such a love in my life even if it went bad and didnt work.

Shows me that it dose excist.

And thanks for the help, this really made a diffrence for me.