here i go..
i met this girl through a friend, we hit it off.. This girl was was everything to me. She studies nursing (first semester) its a very demanding program. she also has work thursdays, fridays, and saturdays morning. i also go to school, but its more of a laid back program. i also work as a waiter fridays saturdays and sometimes sundays. So we both have busy lives. but we see each other when we get the chance.
Ive never cried so much after such a short relationship. it lasted almost 2 months, but i feel like it could a went on for years. this girl meant the WORLD to me. i wanted to tell her i loved her, but she didnt know what that meant since she got her heart shattered after her ex cheated on her.
So the reasons she gave me was that she wanted to give 100% of her. but could only give 60%, and she still hasnt healed from her ex, and we werent seeing each other enough, and when we did see each other it was the same thing over and over again etc.. but she said i was the perfect guy right after
After hearing from friends of hers, i learned that she was upset about it. and that she didnt want to do it. she also texted me last night ''<3'' i didnt respond till tonight saying i missed her, and she responded with a ''i miss you too''
i really want this girl back. i could write for hours about this. but i need to know what to do. i want to give her the cold shoulder, but the other part of me wants to call her suffocate her bombard her.. which is wrong. what should i do. i feel like we were made for each other.
ps: i dont sleep, or eat often.. ive lost almost 25 pounds in the past week..




