My name is Brian...I come in Peace

[Bdoon]

Hola...hablo poco espanol and I work in transpo engineering and planning...I am 57 yrs old and both my sons are living with their spouses somewhere else. My wife who has lived in the USA for 40 years is from another culture/country...we have been married 24 years.

Physically I am short-5 ft 9 inches but not bad looking (unfortunately it is always young women who crack on me) and physically in good enough shape that many young men ask me how I got in such good shape. I am all heterosexual (actually to an extreme...but I maintain a low interest...do not want to feed my demon) who likes women of all kinds but prefer women 40 to 60 years old (someone I can talk to...in person, not on FaceBook, a cell phone etc).

Ethnically I am 75% Irish American and 25% Acadian/First Nation-Micmac...my wife is 75% First Nation-Maya and 25% Spanish.

I have registerd for this site because I am going thru some feelings and thoughts that I have little experience with. 10 being best and 1 being worst, my marriage ranges between a 2 and a 5. Currently it is around 2.5.

I live near the septic tank called Balto/Wash Dc, a step up from the sewer of north Jersey where I was raised until age 16.
Nice to meet you too.

[the_robot]

This is the most complete presentation I've read so far. You win.

Welcome to LF.

[Gigabitch]

Now THAT is an intro thread. Welcome, Bdoon.

I'm a 40-ish white woman from new Mexico. My marriage is awesome, but that's because it's my second one. I hope I can help with yours.

[dono01]

This is the most complete presentation I've read so far. You win.

Welcome to LF.

That is pretty much what i was thinking. :-)

[Bdoon]

My wife is threatening me with divorce, Somehow she found out I had asked this female doctor, about 43 yrs old and single, out for coffee. [I]t topped the cake at that time,,,about 2 years ago, The doctor ignored me and then showed up in my neighborhood in her car,,,talk about coincidence,,,I live about 45 miles from her, She was very resntful at me because I quit her practice,,,she was overprescribing narcotis for me (my opinion) and I began developing some strong "feelings" for her. She is brilliant and not physically attractice by mostt mens standards but I think she is beautifu. when I left her practice I did not have trouble with withdrawal from drugs (I am in constant pain...surgeon screwed up or my body reacted wrong to a knee replacement) but found I really missed her, So I asked the doctor out for coffeebut she ignored me.

So I pull up tp a stop sign 1/2 mile from where I live and she pulls up from the opposite direction. I look at her and she gives me this strong look of anger...I keep staring at her and she drops her head and then looks up with this big, inviting grin on her face. Like an idiot I drove away...I had resentments about her ignoring me the prior weeks. A week later I get a court notice that she wants a protective order against me, I lawyer up and at court when she realizes I get to tell my side...she drops the protrctive order and my lawyer tells her I will stay away.

then the phone calls start etc....often at night to my work phone with strnge things like ticking clocks etc. i get a call from Costa Rica...where she went on vacation and one from Jamaica when she was there. After about a year I send her a Christmas card and she reinitiates the protective order request. I do not even bother going to the hearing. A female judge tosses it out. Other than that card I had no contact with her for a year.

Two months later she shows up at the gym I belong to with a friend...about 50 miles from where she lives. I freaked out when I caught her staring at me with a big shit eating grin and left the gym. The following Saturday she comes to the gym and sits down on theexercise bike next to the one I am on but will not look at me, leaving after about half an hour. That was about a year ago. whether she ever came back I do not know as the following weekend (after her second visit) i had aan argument with the manager and quit the gy. Strange phone calls again for a year.

My wife somehow found out about my play and so that year was hell for me. Other things happened as well.

I SENT HER A NOT APOLOGIZING AND ASKING FORGIVENESS FOR IGNORING HER WHEN SHE HAD BENSUCH A GOOD DOCTOR,,,ALSO APOLOGIZED THAT i QUIT HER PRACTICE UNEXPECTEDLY AND DID NOT TALK TO HER AT MY GYM. nO RESONSE FORM HER. wILL NOT CONTACT HER AGAIN BUT SHE IS ON MY MIND EVERYDAY ESPECCISLLY when things ar rough between my wife and me.Those court oders would have been delivered at my job and could get into a world of hurt. However I know a bbunch of the sheriffs and they let me be served at their offce.

What is going on pray tell? It seems like she wnts to hurt me so bad..part of the rason I did not talk to her at gym.

I am really attracted to her but do not want to be associated with my obsessive thinking. Also afraid of my own feeling.

Doctors think difrent than the rest of us...but at this point I just want to be free .Also want her but not the thinking out of a reality context.

Oh vell...wat is going on?thankyou so muc.
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[misombra]

sounds like fatal attraction.