True. Hate generally denoted despising someone to the point that you'd kill them if given the chance, but since many use that in place of "dislike" I just went ahead. It probably would have been better to make him wait. No string, just don't have any relationship or sex until he has had time to get over his ex. I suppose it doesn't matter now because its over. It is unfortunate, however, that you won't let any guys "get close" to you anymore. I think Mr. Right will come along one day. Hopefully you won't have a wall up when he does.