how old are you? you talk about teenage anxiety so i'm thinking you're pretty young. if so, you need to gain experience and reach for whatever you want/ whatever comes to you. in time, like everyone, your priorities will shift and you'll recognise what you really need in a person. idk about soul mates but whoever you end up being with, you'll need to work at it.
They called us a dead generation,
They told us that we wouldn't survive
They left us alone in the maelstrom
As you can see we're all clearly alive.