I guess I'll get right to the point. My girlfriend and I have been together 4 1/2 months. She is 22 and I'm 28. We practically live together. We are best friends and practically do everything together. I love her so much I want to marry her. It's honestly a feeling I have never had before. She is beautiful, caring, has a great family, and truly just an all around great person. I kind of feel weird saying this but I don't want to talk about it with the people closest to me and I can't talk to her about it anymore because she gets mad and annoyed.
So here we go...
When we first started dating we were having sex quite often. Then it started hurting her for roughly the first 5 seconds just when we started to have sex, then didn't hurt after we started. I'm assuming it was because of my size. I know she hasn't had sex with many people and I'm well above average when it comes to size. She's been to multiple doctors and they told her to use KY but that doesn't seem to help all the time. She says it feels like someone is "stabbing her with a knife".
Now we are only having sex 3-5 times a month now. Another problem is she is always kissing me but never making out because she says it will always lead to sex. She also doesn't even want me to go down on her and seems to not be in the mood ever. I feel like I am always trying to start it or have to be more aggressive (in a fun, kind way though) then I like to be. Anyway, I don't know what to do. I know she loves me because I can see it in her eyes. We also already talk about marriage and officially moving in together.
Am I missing something here? I don't want want this to come between us but it really gives me a weird feeling. I don't know why she doesn't want to be intimate. I would think she would want to have sex every day, or at least 3-5 times a week, not month.
Anyway, I'm posting this here because I would like another girls opinion even though I feel weird posting this here. I just can't talk to her about it because she gets extremely annoyed.
Also, on a side note, we are always cuddling, holding hands, loyal, and having fun together.