"I love you" seems to be the hardest words to say...

[Iliveinoblivion]

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

[tehwarlock]

That was awesome, I really enjoyed reading it.

[Mr.LubbaLubba]

Aww sad It's interesting; we can so easily tell people that we hate them, but we find it difficult to tell people that we love them. Odd.

[Iliveinoblivion]

You have no idea how, sometimes I wish I could go back in time and be honest all those times I had to but, was too insecure for it. Now I know that, the outcome never matters: It´s doing your part, opening yourself without being afraid what it really matters, just doing your part. Whatever comes out of that it´s only gain and benefit. It´s better to live without the doubt.

[HeartIsAching]

Oh my god... that was a true story?

What a horrible discovery to make. I'm so sorry.

[vhayes8886]

wow. thats me. funny thing is i'm in grade 10. that is me and i regret every time i cant say those 3 words. i don't know why their hard to say but they are.

[theimmature]

I hope this is not a true story but somehow... it just seems so probable. Surely there had been at least some couples like this.

Life is indeed too short for regrets...

And thank you for this story. I saw another version in another forum but it was a lot simpler and didn't manage to touch me as much.

[just.a.guy.]

Holy crap.
If this is real.
Dude, I can't help but feel for you. This is brutal...............
thank you so much for sharing; it must have been so hard.