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[zenots]

you're blowing hot and cold, its blowing my mind off

i miss you..

[Horseyguy]

Sorry about your dog and that you are not coping.

Please get some help with the grief and the alcohol and I hope you find yourself in a better place soon. I miss seeing you smile and just wish that things had turned out different. We were so good together, it's sad what happened and it was a shame it had to end like this.

You will always have a place in my heart but I have to move on.

[DarkHelmet82]

you are a psycho but I love you anyway... What is wrong with me?

[ktm390]

hey that package that we were waiting for finally came. guess i'll keep it all for myself, since i cant get ahold of you and you havent contacted me. even though you paid for it, guess you are shit out of luck! its gonna be really fun!

[AMansView]

So it was you who kidnapped my puppy! Ransom!!! I'm not paying you $30,000 to get Tooky back! I'm calling the president about this!
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[zenots]

Some random passerby played with my door bell just now
I actually thought it was you paying me a surprise visit, how lame can I get
But its just that
Every time I get home, I wish your shoes were there
Every time I open my room door, I wish you were there sitting right at my table using my laptop, turning your big head back to give me the most beautiful smile in the world
Maybe I do represent a past that you can only want to forget
I don't blame you, I was at fault for not being able to embrace your recovery, being too paranoid of losing you again
If only I came to realise what I did only succeeds in pushing you away
Now that you have fully recovered, I'm already tied in with the horrendous past and negative emotions
It'll probably take years for you to see me in new light but by then it would most probably have been too late
What a shame this fate has played on us and what a shame this love has turned out wasted
Argh **** I'm just especially missing you right here right now
And shit I actually sent the above to my ex
I deserve to have my head stomped by an elephant...

[DarkHelmet82]

you sent that to them? why and how?

[zenots]

i sent a msg to her. ought to have controlled myself i know..

[DarkHelmet82]

yeah its hard i know man... time moves sooooo slow... did she respond?

[zenots]

she's now asking if i'm ok.. actually she talks to me every day online briefly but that's not getting anywhere.. we're supposed to meet next week though. she always seem to talk to me more after meeting me but it's still getting nowhere..

[DarkHelmet82]

you dont want her to pity you or she will lose respect for you

[zenots]

yeah i know i try to not contact her as much as possible but it turns out whenever she talks to me i will kind of break down, esp if the conversation is going nowhere

[DarkHelmet82]

does she contact you first?

[zenots]

Yeah she usually either sends me an exclamation mark to attract my attention or simply "how're you today". In fact that stupid msg i sent her was after she did the former but did not follow up my reply. I guess I was nuts as well but today was our get-tog-day, and I really thought for a moment that when my doorbell rang it was her -_- she used to stay with me before finding her own room after graduation..

I'm not sure if I've managed to convince her that I'm not needy tonight (which I actually am), just acted upbeat and stuff to try to put forth the impression that I'm more than fine. She's going to sleep now and asked me to give her the morning call which I suppose indicates that she's slightly missing me or at least not put off by me? I know I can only be patient but considering she used to call me all the time and now it's only occasional texts the disparity is huge - hell it's not even as frequent as when I was courting her (or perhaps its more of the other way round, but that doesn't matter now). We're supposed to meet next weekend but I'm really afraid that time is running out for me to recreate the spark, at the rate this is going.

[DarkHelmet82]

dont call her.. tahts my recommendation