This helps..

[Purrzzzzzz]

this is my pain... please only listen if you are very sad right now and you know nothing can help.. this site helps me sometimes, you can save your songs to private if you like and no one can hear them but you..

[url]http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/b672ca728[/url]

[DarkHelmet82]

thanks.. now i want to stick a gun in my mouth

[Purrzzzzzz]

dont say that.. we are both in the same boat here.. just know that you are not alone in your pain.. if you can record your own songs it helps..

[DarkHelmet82]

it was depressing... i know you meant well.. dont take what i said the wrong way.. i now feel like crap tho

[Purrzzzzzz]

I'm sorry... I did warn u though.... now go record a song.. what can it hurt?

[Purrzzzzzz]

or go to utube and listen to 'fade to black' by metallica... its sad, but its also soothing somehow..

[DarkHelmet82]

yeah i know the song.. i feel like dying right now.. sorry i shouldnt say things like this.

[Purrzzzzzz]

I feel like dying too... but I am not going to.. and I hope you wont either..

[DarkHelmet82]

ive thought about it but I dont have the ability to do it.... thank god.

[DarkHelmet82]

"ill ride the wave where it takes me, Ill hold the pain release me"

[that one guy]

Thanks for this.. It's sad but it's still emotionally nourishing. I'm trying my very best to keep my composure but my mind fades and it goes back to thinking about her. I miss her. So. God. Damn. Much.

[Purrzzzzzz]

I cant stop .. no matter what I do.. I havent had any alcohol for about a year. never in my life before 7pm... today I started at 2pm.. thats when I got his msg 'why didnt u reply? how are u???' then I drank enough to finally make me sleep for 3 hours.. then I woke up and drove to the store for more vodka.. i have been laying in a semi-concious state since I last posted.. and my dreams are all about him having a change of heart..

[Purrzzzzzz]

that one guy: if these help you at all, here are a couple more..

[url=http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c7979a5e8]SingSnap | Goodbye My Lover by Purrzzzzzz[/url]

[url=http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c39fdf6e8]SingSnap | SingSnap Original by Purrzzzzzz[/url]

[that one guy]

They continue to help. I'm actually keeping it together and not crying even though I want to. She wouldn't want me to be sad because every time she saw me sad, she would get upset too. I just want to hold her, kiss her, cuddle her... God damnit.

[Purrzzzzzz]

I know, I know, oh god I know.. he wants me to be happy.. its the only reason he ever talks to me..