Hello!
Well before I begin I want to say thank you for reading this and I appreciate any positive/negative comments (that’s why I’m here)
Well my girlfriend and I met in the first year of high school when we were both 15 and 16 and have been together ever since. We have had our ups and downs but none of us every cheated or anything like that. We both live in the USA. Fast-forward to present day, I am 19 and half now and just finished my first year in school in Vancouver (I had to move away from California because I got very good scholarships). We successfully did a year of long distance albeit it was extremely difficult without any of us cheating or anything like that.
Problem is ever since I have been back for summer vacation; I just don’t feel like I am in love with her anymore but I DO love her. She is the sweetest thing I’ve ever met (my first girlfriend) and an amazing girl but I just can’t see myself marrying this girl which makes it difficult for me to give her 100%. During school breaks, I would come down from British Columbia (where I live) to California to my hometown but what makes things even more complicated is that my parents are trying to move to somewhere else which is about 1 hour from my hometown so I will barely get to see my girlfriend.
She is still madly in love with me but lately I have been thinking about breaking off. I catch myself looking at other girls too much, sometimes having fantasies about girls that are not her. She is just not my dream girl and the more we hang out the more I realize we have a lot in common but at the same time; I am starting to realize her flaws more and more.
I haven’t been single in almost 4 years and I feel like I’m already married when I’m only 19! I don’t know what to do anymore the thought of not having her is dreadful but I am not satisfied in my relationship. I have been thinking of breaking up for the past 3 months but I just can bring myself to see her cry
I am really not sure what to do…I feel like I am not giving her 100% but she is such a good girl that she deserves 10000% but I still love her Any advice would be GREATLY appreciated Thank you!!