I Wish We Can Go Back To The Way It Used Back When We Was Happy & You Only Needed Me

[xmoe1990x]

Ugh all that time we spent together. The apartment we got together. The dreams we had together is now all one big dream I really don't know what to do anymore.. Last night i had a dream and it was of me and you minus all the cheating you took part in and we were so happy i never wanted to wake up from that dream but my alarm clock woke me up and i was reaching for you but instead of you it was my pillow then i finally once again woke up to the reality that you were gone... I wish i can just have that same dream every night minus the me waking up to reality part. I'm trying so hard to get over you I'm putting on a fake smile everywhere i go but at the end of the day witch i always looked forward to because you would always be waiting for me to come home from work i realized that your gone i have nothing to look forward to anymore. You were not the first girl that cheated on me or the first girl i have had a relationship with but your the only girl i have every looked forward to having a future with. I just want to go back to the way it was with me and you we were so happy but i know it's never gonna happen i know i need to move on and live my life but i cant you got me in a emotional choke hold and your not letting me go.

[Bigboy77]

****ing sucks. In a similar boat. It gets better though as time goes on!

[lm1983]

i am in the same boat too, i am so gutted! words cant even begin to describe how low im feeling right now, i really hope it does get better, im nowhere near the same guy i used to be.. im sorry for your loss xmoe1990x

[AnnaLucia]

I know how you feel. I'm going through this same now. Having dreams like these is a torture… When I wake up I can't help but cry. And this feeling like if someone was crashing your chest and heart… Especially when I know that I will see my ex everyday at the university… I will only make that horrible feeling last longer... I don't want to look a him...

But this feeling fades, you know, but it takes time and it sucks.

[Miss_winter]

Same here. I'm going through the same thing with you. It hurts, but I'm moving on. I need to move on if I want to stay sane..

"this too, shall past"