Hey everyone.
My name is John. I'm 20 years old and am a music major. I have only had one girlfriend and it lasted 2 weeks in the 9th grade.
I have had plenty of opportunities to date others, however, I always get stuck.
I feel as if I am searching for my wife... not a girlfriend. I am looking for a serious / long term relationship or ... not really even that .. just am looking for someone that I could see myself marrying. I feel as if I am making too big a deal over it all and am "trying" too hard. I have never been someone who lusted after physical intimacy.. and I would never just date someone for the sex.
I tend to fall pretty hard for girls that I can't ever seem to get. I am confident, good looking (so others have told me), have a bright future and am a pretty good musician. I feel like I could be PERFECT for someone... I just can't find her.
Before I go on.. how many times have you heard that last statement.. Probably 50 billion times..
I know people say to have patience and that they will eventually show themselves... however... I have been extremely patient. I stayed single.. by choice.. from 9th grade until now... so for the past 5 years... I haven't tried super hard to find her... just been waiting and hoping she would show up. I have taken chances.. because obv. if you never try.. you will never succeed, however, the relationship always gets stuck because i realize she isn't the one.
A little about me:
I'm 5 foot 11
Athletic build, however, on the skinnier side.
You could imagine me to dress like a skater.. I love to skate and be outdoors.
I am considered the life of the party and usually am just a crazy funny guy.
I do get a little shy around people I don't know too well.. especially if it's a bigger crowd of strangers.
I just like to chill and let things roll off my shoulders.. I try not to worry too much.
Is there something I could be doing differently? Anyone know of any tips or advice on waiting? Should I continue holding out for her? In my opinion, it will be worth it.. because
A. my wife is going to find it super romantic that I waited on her.
B. my wife isn't going to know wtf hit her.. like real talk.. when I find her.. I'm going to pour everything onto her. She will literally be the Queen of my life.. and I don't mean in the sense that I have no backbone and just let her walk and run the relationship.. I mean in the sense that.. I am going to do so many romantic things for her.
This will give you an idea of how much of a hopeless romantic I am.
I want to play her music... serenade her with it...
My ideal date is a horse drawn carriage around a bustling town.. in the winter.. with it snowing and we just sit there cuddled up and drink coffee and talk.
I want to spend nights just staying awake.. laying beside each other... not necessarily even talking, just being together... and feeling each other's presence.
Normally, I wouldn't have posted here or joined the forum.. I would've just gone on with my life...
however, I am getting impatient. I feel like I've waited my fair share and am now just yearning that relationship.
Anyone else gone through this?
P.S. If your out there.. I'm here.