An update from Empty Church

[EmptyChurch]

Hi all...

For anyone who doesn't remember me... here's another thread of mine.

[url]http://www.loveforum.net/love-advice-forum/56829-i-think-i-blew-my-baby.html[/url]

That was the last thread I posted here.

So much has changed since then.

My long time girlfriend and the mother of my kids left me for a couple weeks and took off for Florida. In that time I tried really hard to get my other lady to come here and rekindle our relationship. she wouldn't.

So for three weeks, I was here alone taking care of my kids all by myself with no female company. I got a blow job from a long time friend I went to high school with, but that's as far as things went.

My other lady (who I am still madly in love with) is out of my life now. When my long time girl came back home we talked and worked everything out and I told her I would end all contact with all other women. I agreed to let her have access to my facebook. She unfriended all my conquests and the girl I'm in love with. She also sent that girl a message saying there would be no more contact with me.

This si where I was surprised... my other girl sent her a message back telling her a lot of things I wish she wouldn't have. She told my long time girlfriend about a lot of affairs I kept secret and a lot of things I didn't want her to know about. Despite the fact that she did me dirty I still love her even now that I can't see or talk to her anymore.

And she is still seeing Aaron from the last thread I posted. I don't know for sure, but I heard her and her husband separated and she is in the process of divorcing him so her and Aaron can be together on their own. I don't know where she lives but I guess he stays with her about half the time. This bums me out. I'm glad she's getting away from her husband. I just wish it was me she left him for. Hearing she is still with him made me sore. My friend said he saw them out at a bar together and they were slow dancing real close and stuff. She never danced with me. But then again I never took her out dancing either.

So now, it's me, my long time girlfriend and the kids. I rarely leave the house. There isn't much more to my life then my family.

And I can work now, so I've been looking hard for a job.

If anyone was wondering what I was up to, that's it. Have a nice evening all.

[EmptyChurch]

Wow... you guys must really hate me, lol.

[EmptyChurch]

Anyone here even remember me?

[EmptyChurch]

I'm gonna keel bumping this thread until at least one person somments. THe fact that no one has said anything makes me think it was pointless even posting it. I know people here wanted to see my situation change. Now it has. But no one cares.

[Petit Papillon]

I remember your nickname, but not the story behind. It's ****ed up though, is it so hard to have a normal life? People that come here are always living such complicated and weird lives ...

[MerryH]

I know people here wanted to see my situation change.

Yeah, one or two people did want to see your situation change. And it has, but not because you actually grew a set and did the right thing. Your situation changed because the women in your life got sick of your bullshit and did something about it, which is more than I can say for you, you colossal failure of a man.

"But no one cares." Whaaa. Were you expecting someone to applaud you and tell you what a wonderful thing you've done?

**** off, EmptyChurch. Stop whining. Go take care of your children and get a ****ing job.

[Lovable]

Merry H said it best...I read your old thread & this new 1. Can't type anythiing more than Merry H did already...you're not worth the typing...

[EmptyChurch]

I'm trying. Got an interview later on today for a job as a cook.

[EmptyChurch]

Yeah, one or two people did want to see your situation change. And it has, but not because you actually grew a set and did the right thing. Your situation changed because the women in your life got sick of your bullshit and did something about it, which is more than I can say for you, you colossal failure of a man.

"But no one cares." Whaaa. Were you expecting someone to applaud you and tell you what a wonderful thing you've done?

**** off, EmptyChurch. Stop whining. Go take care of your children and get a ****ing job.

Eh put the claws away. I wasn't expecting anyone to applaud me. I just thought maybe some people here might wonder what is up with me, that's all.

Truth is I'm still struggling quite a bit with things. I still watch her from affar, and even though I know it's unhealthy I can't stop checking on her. I always feel worse after I do though.

SHe isn't on my friends list anymore on facebook. But she is still on the friends list of all my kids. She was their babysitter for quite a few years after all. My youngest daughter can only log into facebook with my approval, I have her password. So, sometimes I log on under my daughter's account and look at her profile. It about kills me every time... I look through her photos and see pics of her sitting around a camp fire with the guy she left me for and is now leaving her husband for (so I hear.) He must have really gotten to her. And then I have to read the cutsie things he writes on her wall too. What a slap in the face.

I just wish I knew what he gave her that I didn't/couldn't. But if I knew would I really feel better?

THe mother of my kids has no interest in sex at all. She won't even blow me. All I am is her taxi and her nanny.

I blew the job interview too. THey told me I'm overqualified because it was just a cook job and I have all kinds of managerial experience.

[HeartIsAching]

Wow... you guys must really hate me, lol.

Hate? No. Indifferent, yes.

[EmptyChurch]

Hate? No. Indifferent, yes.

But I'm the ****ed up one eh?

[Cerby]

Not really a positive update, the woman you want to be with wants nothing to do with you, so you're settling with a long time gf who you didn't want to know about all the affairs and cheating - things you will do again.

Congrats on settling for something you don't really want.

[EmptyChurch]

Not really a positive update, the woman you want to be with wants nothing to do with you, so you're settling with a long time gf who you didn't want to know about all the affairs and cheating - things you will do again.

Congrats on settling for something you don't really want.

Who cares if she's not who I want. Staying with her is the right thing to do. I have four kids with her.

[random bundy]

I can't sum up the energy to write a normal response to this thread. So I'm gonna wing it.

Who bumps up his own thread several times in a short period of time? Attention whores.

In related news, banana pancakes are delicious.

[EmptyChurch]

I can't sum up the energy to write a normal response to this thread. So I'm gonna wing it.

Who bumps up his own thread several times in a short period of time? Attention whores.

In related news, banana pancakes are delicious.

In response to your question, I do.

And yea, banana are good, but I like blueberry better.