For me.. To move on it looks like I would have to "kill" the friendship... comment?

[trialqw]

I'll just summarize this one up...

During highschool I've been friends with my seatmate in class.. let us name her Jill. We have been friends for along time and confessed then ended up being rejected...

I didn't want that rejected feeling to last so picked myself up and here I am now in medical school...

She got in touch through a quote.. Ended up talking with her again... Confessed again then got shot again... Sick and tired of this crappy feeling so I texted her that this time I want space, I want to distance myself.. I hope you understand etc etc... Then she replied " Do not be like this"

I then texted back *sorta went like this* It would help me move on. I have know you for a long time, put off other (women) knowing you are special. Rejected friends advice that I should stop pursuing you. I am not mad, just disappointed, didn't get what I was hoping for.. so maybe this time, I'd open myself to other chances that might come by.. I hope you understand..

Then she replied that she is now having a hard time too..

Then she replied : You are like my bestfriend and you want to end it like this?

--- I was like @_@.... those meme faces....

Geez I really want to freaking forget her.. If only there was a drug to forget her and not being guilty coz of what she said...

I don't know how to respond to what she said....

[MaidenMinx]

Tell her you need to do what's best for you and that friendship isn't enough for you anymore.
She is being selfish. You explained quite clearly how the friendship is damaging you and she wants you to stay in it regardless. Friends don't do that. Friends actually give a crap how the other feels.

[HeartIsAching]

If what you need is to move on because contact with her is painful for you, she'll understand and want what's best for you if she is truly your friend. If she doesn't, then she wasn't as good a friend as you thought.

[trialqw]

Well I sorta replied in this manner...

Since she said that she appreciated me when we were still friends I said thanks, then I said the point is I confessed then got a reply that I am only up to being friends with her. I said that I can't do this anymore, I just want to put this behind and move on. and for a guy to have his feelings not returned is disappointing and so I have to keep my distance now. the friendship may be gone but that's just the way it is... maybe for some people they can endure it but I don't want this feeling again...

Then she replied...

I guess I can't please you so maybe we both need time and space. Lastly I just want to say thank you for your time and effort, for me this will not go to waste and do not think that what you did is not worth it because you made me happy and I enjoyed your company so THANK YOU VERY MUCH...

yeah she did CAPS that...

Then I replied...

I didn't get my chance.. even just to go and eat out with you.. Thank you Jill.. God bless

Maybe.. it may not be overnight.. if I ever get a chance.. I hope that this time it will be more than just a friend...

END OF CONVERSATION...

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Do you think I did pressure her?
Should I have not put the confession directly? and just joke about it to "feel" if she also feels the same way..
lol special friend... @_@