I've been thinking a lot about (romantic) "attraction", lately, especially with how bummed out I've been feeling with a failed attempt to woo a girl I was pretty crazy for. From my observations and assessments, I've come to the conclusion that the most long lasting relationships are based on two "attractions"; a mental/ emotional aspect, and a physical/ sexual aspect. By the way, from here on out, when I say "sexual", I don't mean it in an overtly "Rip your clothes off and go to town" way, I mean it in a more general way.
Anyway, it seems to me that when the balance between these two is tipped one way or another, two things happen: If there's more of a mental/ emotional connection, the two people probably won't "date" or be together romantically; if there's more of a physical/ "sexual" connection, it's more likely to be a fling or a more shallow relationship that fizzles out quicker.
Now, even though it seems to be super rare to actually find, I think given the right person, I can make the mental/ emotional connection just fine. My problem seems to be making the "sexual" connection.
I'm not currently actively looking to date, but I think until I can figure out this "sexual appeal" thing, I'm probably not going to have much luck getting dates. I subscribe to the idea that you don't have to be good looking to make yourself "sexually" appealing. After all, plenty of not-so-good looking people manage to date, fall in love, and have sex. The problem is, I have zero idea how to actually make yourself "sexually" appealing otherwise.
Not to mention, "sex", in general, scares me a bit. Er, well, not sex, itself, but the idea of it. One reason is because it's a complete unknown to me. I've never purposely touched a girl in any kind of way, and girls don't really touch me in any way except for some simple meaningless stuff (such as high-fiving, or brushing something off my shoulder). So, it's something I have no experience with at all. The other reason is because I have a huge fear of making people uncomfortable, and touching/ "sexual" behavior can very easily make people uncomfortable, and if you're not perceptive enough to know that you're making them uncomfortable, you come off as some creepy weirdo.
So, I find myself wondering how better make myself "sexually" appealing to women.