Well, can't believe i'm here saying this, girl is driving me crazy.
So, 10 months ago now, my girlfriend (at the time) went alone to a work event i couldn't go to, she spoke to this guy for a couple hours, he worked in same company as her, he kissed her, she responded by kissing him back, it lasted 10-20 seconds and she says she pulled off it, gave a uncontrollable guilt smile and went indoors without saying a word, he approached her an hour later asking to go to his for sex, which her response was no.
Now, it's 10 months ago, i still wake up every morning her picturing her kissing this total t**t of a man, i dumped her as soon as i found out, however, i'vebeen seeing her, taken couple weekend breaks with her, and as much as i hate to admit it, we've become 10x closer than we ever was.
But no matter how close we come, i still can't forgive her, still can't shake the picture of her, the only girl for me, kissing someone else.
I know on her side of the story she didnt throw herself onto him, she went back with friends as soon as she kissed him and never spoke a word, and importantly has since left this guys company in order to try restore a relationship with me.
My head is totally f**ked, i've tried binning her, tried going out meeting new woman, but can't she is the only one i want to be with, going a day without talking to her seems about 100 hours long.
I know, before you say it, im pathetic for latching onto such a small thing. But it bruised my ego, and i am so angry at it.
So my question is, will my mind EVER get over this?? Will it still be hurting in a year from now? I just want to move on from it, and have a life with this girl.
Where does my constant anger and visions of the kiss come from? whats wrong with me.