Okay, I have a rather complicated situation... I know it's long, a lot of which in the beginning may seem to have little to nothing to do with the main focus of the subject, just please bear with me. I'm sorry about that... I could just really use some support right now...
I'm 19 years old and will be 20 March 10th. I've had a quite an unfortunate life (we all have to some extent) but essentially, I'm in a predicament. I unfortunately failed a grade back in high school and have also taken a year off after high school. I don't have a job but I'm currently looking for one, and am also now looking into some college and career opportunities. Like I've said, I've had a bit of a rough time, and therefore wasted a lot of it simply due to depression and stress. Now though, I think I'm finally on the fast track to success, but it's still a long road, and is difficult to go alone...
I'm a hopeless romantic, and generally a bit of a prude. I've never done something as radical as join a 'love' forum before. I want more than anything to find the one perfect girl of my dreams and fall in love like one of those sappy romance movies. I just can't seem to make that happen.
Fact is, I live with my mother, unemployed, no friends, no family, no money, no college, and certainly no looks... I'm the very definition of ugly itself. I have acne all over, I'm out of shape, pastey white pale, and every square inch of me is covered in hair except the one part I want to have hair on, my head, which yeah, my hairline is already receeding at the age of 19... I'm the very definition of a poor ugly loser...
I'm trying to fix the unemployment and college thing, but that'll take another year, and the ugliness issue I have a plan, but that'll take me even longer... Essentially it'll be years before I'm able to actually be able to have my own life, and that's only if things go perfectly smoothly...
I hope it's not too vain to say that I'm pretty confident in my personality, I'm generally a likeable guy. I just currently have a life one could hardly call a life worth living. a.k.a., no life at all...
My point in all this is, is there even any possible way for me to find love out there in all this mess? I've spent my whole life going at things alone, and frankly I'm sick of it. I want more than anything someone special who can be my exception to this wreck of a life. Yet I'm left here wondering if that's even so much as a rare off-chance lucky break possibility... Do you think it's possible, and if so, what do I have to do to find true love? I'm desperate!