Hi I'm 20 years old and I'm female. My family has a history of panic disorders and also depression. I used to suffer from depression on and off for years but it was bearable.
I've been studying bio-medical sciences at college and it is the best course I have done and I've met some great people. About 5 months ago I was sitting in biology and all of a sudden, this wave of dizziness hit me, my heart started beating so hard I thought I was dying, I went all clammy, my chest got tight and my sight went funny. No one noticed and I quietly got up to go to the toilet and splashed some water on my face. I put it down as an once off and tried to ignore it but ever since then it has happened every time I have been in biology. There is nothing that frightens me about that class. I get on with most of the people, my lecturer is great, the work isn't too bad so I don't understand why I am like this.
I've taken lots of days off because of it. I took today off as well. I had a three hour biology class today which was mainly just revision, but I just stayed off. As much as I revise at home, I miss a lot from not being in class.
I was all for going today and then just before my alarm went off, the panic started again.
I've been to my GP who refered me to a mental health nurse and she is refering me to CBT and physiotherapy to teach me how to relax during an attack but I could be waiting up to 6 weeks for an appointment and my big final exams are in about 4 weeks.
I feel as though I am going crazy and I will explode or crumble at any minute