So ive been going out with this girl for almost 6 months. Doesnt
look like much on paper, but we have had the most amazing
relationship. Never felt love like this before and we are
already have talks about marriage in the future. Let me give you
the run down...
Its against our religion to drink, and in general drinking
especially a girl like her (so innocent) drinking disgusts me.
One day I found out she drank. This was a month into the
relationship. She said she was going to tell me herself and ask
for forgivness but I caught her first. Fair enough, you effed
up, I forgive you. Then again I caught her red handed lying to
me about what she was doing, when she was out drinking with her
friend. And then again, caught lying red handed. Not to mention,
through out the 6 months there were many times I had suspicions
that she was drinking but I didnt have any proof, so I just
convinced myself shes being honest and didnt drink.
So yesterday I caught her red handed lying to me for the third
time about drinking. We was almost at breaking point, until I
told her all i wanted was honesty from you. She broke down and
told me all her secrets and lies...all those times i suspected
that she was drinking, she was ACTUALLY drinking. Note: These
times she would argue with me the whole day, calling me a
untrusting jerk, having trust issues, being a paranoid git etc
made me feel so bad...now she admits that all those times i was
actually right and she was lying to me and drinking.
Ive given this girl nothing but my full honesty. My heart,
everything. Yesterday when she told me everything I felt good
inside, because she was finally being honest and admitted
everything, and she said this was it, no more drinking and IF
she did she would tell me. I forgived her for everything, put
everything out of my head and said lets start fresh.
24 hours on...and my heart is burning. She lied to me so many
times. So many times. What do I do man...i love her so much...i want to forgive her and believe shes never going to lie again...but really, can I? She just told me she's been lying for the last 6 months. It feels like the whole relationship was a lie i cant explain it. What do i do?