How to get rid of a bad mental image?

[Indestructible]

So, every time I get aroused and start fantasizing and thinking sex (and since I don't actually have sex, this is all just in my head), I'm stuck on a bad mental image... I keep imagining this girl I've had feelings for for ages now and her current boyfriend doing all kinds of nasty stuff to each other. It makes me very uncomfortable, and I often feel a bit ill physically every time, as well. It gets under my skin and bothers me.

It's especially bad in the morning; I often wake up at 5 AM, but I stay in bed til 8 trying to get more rest, and for some bizarre reason, it seems like my peak time for arousal is 5-8 AM, because during those three hours, I can't get my mind off of sex. And with this horrible mental image I have, that means those three hours are spent imagining this girl having all kinds of kinky sex with her boyfriend. And that's not even counting all the other times I become aroused throughout the day. v_v Even if I try to watch porn to give myself some different imagery, I just inevitably replace the people in the video with this girl and her boyfriend.

This has actually been an ongoing problem for a number of months, now, but I'm just starting to become aware of how bad this problem is. And considering I become aroused a LOT, you can imagine how distressing this is for me. I really want to make this stop already. :/

[basilandthyme]

Go to bed earlier and so that you can get up at 5am and do something useful.

[BondaraGirl]

You could practice meditating?

It teaches mental focus and discipline of the mind. Once you're able to clear your mind and focus on nothing but you're breathing, when it comes to masturbation you should find it easier to focus on pleasant sexual thoughts without your mind wandering.

Alternatively, you could just watch porn and focus on that?

[4 ratties]

You're into kinky shit huh

[Am I crazy?]

You have issues. maybe you just need to forget about this girl and get your own woman or find a way to replace the dude in the image with yourself.

[Indestructible]

You're into kinky shit huh

Heh. No, this is actually pretty distressing and uncomfortable for me. Sometimes it makes me feel physically sick.

You have issues. maybe you just need to forget about this girl and get your own woman or find a way to replace the dude in the image with yourself.

I really wish I could "forget about this girl". It's just so hard, because I've never liked anyone as much as I liked her, I've never hit it off with anyone as well as I did with her, and the fact that I still know her (not by choice) doesn't help, either. As far as the other part of your suggestion, I can't picture myself having sex. Like, at all. I can't even imagine what that would be like. Whenever I "fantasize", I tend to imagine two people that aren't me (though, people I have no attachment to, of course, like I do with this girl). Even if I could do that, I think I'd just end up feeling bad for imaging myself with her, knowing I'll never get that experience, and meanwhile, some other dude is getting to be with her.