I met this girl a month ago. We're both oversea students. She's from Japan. Somehow i managed to hang out with her several times. We used to have dinner together, that was the first time i cooked for her, for anybody. We also had coffee together in a coffee shop, lunch and watched movies together several times, in cinema, just two of us. We even spent time together waiting at the subway with nobody else around, we talked, we laughed, and again just two of us. She said she has a boyfriend in Japan, they fight a lot because her boyfriend likes to take control of her, but she said he is getting better so she still keeps this relationship. So I knew she has a boyfriend, but i still hung out with her quite frequently, it was always great time with her. Every time i ask her out, she always says yes to me. So we hung out a lot and met almost everyday. We also text each other everyday. At first, she replied my message quite slowly but then i got her response very quickly. I always feel happy every time i am with her, so i felt for her. We have eyes contact frequently, everytime i look into her eyes, she looks at me back and we usually have eyes contact for quite a long time (minutes). I know she also looks at me although when i don't look at her, i know because sometimes i do it on purpose and just try to test her feeling. I thought she also has feeling for me, because the way she looks at me (and we have eyes contact for minutes) is not the look to a friend. She came to my 24th birthday party with a very nice dress that i've never seen before. She made that day even more special to me. She also told me that she enjoys hanging out with me. All the signs tell me that she has feeling for me in the same way that i have for her.
She came back to Japan for 2 weeks, to celebrate her birthday, and it was just yesterday. One day before the day she left, i wrote a letter (hand writing) and told her how special she means to me, and how much i care about her, how i feel about her and hope to receive a similar response. But she replied that "thank you to let me know your feeling", she said that she has a boyfriend and she loves him, she just want us to be friends. She said she shouldn't meet only me so many times. She just want me to continue as her friend.
I don't really get it, what was all the time of eyes contact about? why did she say yes every time i asked her out? why did she look at me like that??...and now she tells me she just wants to be my friend.
I'm leaving to go back to my country the day she comes back here (UK). So we're not gonna meet each other for 3 months. What should I do when i meet her again? I'm not the type of guy who tries to steal somebody's girlfriend, but now i have very strong feeling for her. I miss her so much. I told her we could still be friends after we meet again in September. But i don't know if i can forget all the happy feeling she gave me. Please tell me what happened Please tell me where i was wrong. Please tell me what should i do now. I am so confused