I just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 months. For 2 weeks all I could think of is breaking up with him and I finally did, but now I'm so sad that I wanna go back to him.
There are lot of problems between us:1. I asked him if he loves me he said he doesnt know. He said he has to mean it when he says it, we have to get to know each other better, he said he never said love so quickly. On one hand, I think it kind of makes sense cuz although we dated 5 months, we only see each other on the weekends(we live 1.5hrs away by driving). But on the other hand, I took it really hard cuz it hurts to hear that. Also, he admited he's not 100% involved with me. He was only 100% involved once, that was 10 years ago when he was 22, that girl cheated on him, after that he just became cold.Also, 2 of his friends tried to commit suicide because of their break up(1 actually shot himself infront of my bf), that might have some effection on him too. But I still took that really hard. Actually that's the biggest reason I broke up with him. I'm not sure if he's ever gonna be 100% in love with me, I dont know how long i have to wait if that's gonna happen.
2. I tried to get to know him better, I tried to go to his place, to meet his friends, he didnt seem interested. He's not reluctant to meet my friends though, and he drives down to my place every weekend. I'm mad at his attitude. However, he lives in a really small town(500 people, no traffic lights, no cell phone signals)and his friends are farmers, I suspect he might feel uncomfortable about that.
3. That leads to the third problem. He thinks I am too good for him. He lives in a small town, went to college for 2 years. I am in professional school, from a big city, good looking. I treat him extremely well, I told him I'm willing to do anything for him because I'm crazily in love with him, seems like he wouldnt believe me.
I feel extremely confused in this relationship. But I'm also extremely happy when I'm with him. We broke up 3 times during 5 months. He tried to break up with me 2, but we got back together. The 3rd time is me who tried to break up, I asked him what if I wanna break up, he said " I care for you", [url]http://www.loveforum.net/newthread.php?do=newthread&f=8later[/url] I asked what if I wanna break up again, he said "that'll suck". I could feel when we got back together, he made a lot of effort to make our relationmship work, but it just bothers me too much that he's not in love.Finally I broke up with him. I'm feeling relieved, but also very very sad. Should I go back to him, I kind of cant imagine life without him.