My gf lives in another city, and I watch porns. She can't speak directly to me because of my circumstances. I can't see or hear her speaking directly to me although she can see or hear me speaking. My gf sent me some hot videos and pictures. I have used them, but you want variety in stimulation. I started watching porns again; it seems to piss her off although I can't see or hear her talking to me. This is better than picking up a girl (I can. I attract girls even when I don't deliberately interact with girls which is how most guys meet girls. I just show myself around; they come to me who is an ex-model.) for sex only. What I really want to do is to touch my girlfriend, to defile her and to devour her. She is inaccessible. She should be inviting me to her house asap if she wanted me to not use the porns. I am waiting for that invite to her place or anything equivalent in effect she can think of while avoiding her publisher and parents.