So I've been in College for roughly a month now, and there's this one Senior guy that I've developed a pretty serious crush on. We hang out a lot over the weekends, but during the week itself he doesn't really talk to me. We text periodically, but his responses always take forever, which leads me to paranoia. He has invited me out the past few weekends to go to the movies, dinner, karaoke, play tennis, study, but always in a group with his senior friends, which is nice but I kind of want to get to know him personally much better. I don't know if its on purpose, but I get such mixed signals from this guy. I'm really not sure if he just wants to be friends, or more? And for me its really hard to manage my emotions when around him and texting him... He sends me texts asking me some generic questions (how was your day? Did you do anything exciting?) which I don't really know how to analyze, since they're pretty casual questions.
In the past, I've had crushes and like not-completely legitimate boyfriends, but this time I'm really interested in developing a real relationship. I have a feeling that I feel so urgent and impatient about this in part because I miss home and I think that getting a boyfriend is a good way to find a place of security and comfort. Is this a bad mindset? Last weekend, I was very depressed over this situation (hanging out with him but making no progress in terms of friendship/love) and it was a really big distraction. How can I adjust my mindset? Another issue that I have is that I am really not good with dealing with the fact that I'm not sure about what he wants from me specifically- friendship, a relationship?
Thanks,
Yuki