1.5 months ago I met a young woman (24) on the internet. The first 2 weeks we were chatting a lot and we discovered that we have a lot in common. Afterwards, we were talking via phone for hours almost daily. 1 month after we started chatting, we finally met in person. Since she lives 300km (=180mi) away from me, I came by train. We spent a nice Saturday together, the night I stayed in a hotel, on Sunday we spent another nice day.
She is a very decent woman, so that I didn't try to initiate anything, apart from "cuddling" and a kiss on her cheek.
Several times I mentioned, that I liked her and want to see her again. But she was unsure about that.
2 days later, she called me and told me that she wants to visit me and she even will be staying over 2 nights (Friday to Sunday). I was overjoyed!
The first night we slept in different rooms. However, the next morning we had sex. The rest of the day we had a lot of fun visiting different cities, etc. However, she mentioned, that doesn't feel like it was right to have sex with me after such a short time. But, the next morning we again had sex.
When we went out for a walk, we visited a big church. As she is religious, she went into a prayer room, while I was waiting outside. When she came out she behaved differently. Later, she told me, that she was thinking about the sex we had and that she feels guilty.
I then took her to the railway station, where we were waiting for her train. She is a very confident and "composed" woman, who always controls her emotions. But suddenly, she pulled me to her, put her head on my chest and we remained in that position for some time. It felt like she was going to start crying because she was leaving.
I whispered things like "Please, don't be so strict with yourself. I'm not a guy, who sleeps with women and forgets them afterwards. I have feelings for you. I want to see you again." She was silently nodding.
It seemed like she "dropped her mask" for the very first time. She was so vulnerable. Then, she kissed me goodbye.
2 days later I called her and wanted to make things clear. I wanted to see her again. But, she explained me, that she still feels guilty because she had sex with me so early and even outside of a relationship. Before me, she only had 2 sexual partner, with whom she waited about 4-5 months before having sex. She feels like a "b*tch". She is in an inner conflict with herself and doesn't know, whether we will meet ever again.
Of course, I mentioned several times that she means a lot to me and that I'm very serious about her. Also, I offered her to just meet without having sex for some time, until she feels ready.
I know that she enjoyed our time together, also the sex. It was very nice and she likes me as a person. I know that she wants to meet me, but her conviction makes it difficult for her.
I really felt in love with her and I don't want to lose her.
I do understand, that it is difficult for her, but in my opinion it just doesn't make any sense to just break of our contact. I didn't not hurt her in any way. We really had a great time. That, what would have happened anyway, happened a bit earlier in our case.
Since we really have a lot in common and our dates took several days, not just hours, we developed mutual trust and had sex faster than usual.
We still chat and talk over the phone some times, but she made me clear, that she doesn't know, whether she wants to meet me again, so that we avoid talking about that.
Does anybody has any suggestions for me, how to handle that? I don't want to force her in any way, but I also can't just wait for her to sort things out by herself.