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I'm finally ready to let you go.

I forgive you for all that you did that was wrong and hurtful and I thank you for all of the things that you did that made me feel good.

I have become a better person for knowing you and will take so much from what we had with me in to the future.

You were not right for me but I will never regret loving you or regret the time we had together.

I hope you can work out what it is you really want from life and get to a better place than you are now.

I wish you happiness and I hope you can find the love you so desperately seek with someone else.

Thank you Karen, I'm sure I will think of you in the years ahead and reflect on the good times we had and I hope you can think back on our time together with fondness.

I loved you with all my heart and I loved loving you.

Farewell x

you havent asked me if I ate in over a week... you know what I ate for dinner? a can of black olives! u know why? because if I didnt eat something I might have starved to death! or died of a vodka overdose.. not that you would care..

i tried and tried to move on but today i snapped by a stuck stapler, i really tired of pretending im fine and all i really do..very tired now...heart so painful its to much to bare. Shit tears are falling down now...i wish to sleep and never wakes up anymore...i cant live without you, How can you ever ignore me and just move on with your life? 4 years of tears and joy together ..........please come back to me before its to late baby..

I love you.. I need you.. I cant face my shitty life without you.. I havent needed vodka for over a year.. didnt want it.. but I need it now.. remember when u told me to not drink anymore wine? I said ok.. I still have a bottle in the fridge from then.. I didnt need anything else when I had you.. had no problems sleeping.. remember when you told me to stop taking the pills? I did..didnt need them.. I could sleep as long as I was with you.. I was happy.. you used to worry about me eating.. well that has just gone to shit.. I am only eating enough now to survive.. who cares anyway? I was so happy with you.. I didnt care that you were different.. I loved that actually.. but now you would rather be alone than to be with me.. and the only way I can face that is with vodka and sleeping pills..

im nervous about this.. i already know the result, but i need to try

I miss you ... I miss you... I miss you... thank you for finally answering my stupid msg.. you didnt ask how I was, or if I ate.. you were so cold... dead... like me... how did you do that? our endless hours into nothingness.. maybe i wil never understand.. I just feel like I cant go that long without talking to you.. I always meant every word I said... I love you soooo very much :* :* :* :* these are all only for you :* :* :* <3 sweet dreams.. feel me there...

just reading some of your old fb status..about some of the ones that left you, for whatever reason..one died.. one moved away with her bf.. one just didnt care enough about you to stick around.. god, you care so much.. still.. and here I am, the only one who always stuck by you no matter what.. I will never read about me in your status..

i have a feeling this will work out.. dont know why... i hope im right.. but I am prepared for it not too..

It's depressing to come home to the same queen sized bed and not see you sleeping there. It pains me to walk around anywhere and instantly think of times we've been down that same road or ate at that same restaurant. The relationship only lasted 4 months but I liked you when we first met 7+ years ago. I can't stand the thought of losing you but I think I already have. All my friends are with me... Even some of YOUR friends have sided with me. These friends have known you for just as long as I have and they can't stand what you did to someone as good as me. I tell myself this all the time: "She cheated on you." I repeat it over and over in my head but my heart still pains. I have little confidence in myself anymore and I've lost so much weight because all I do is mope around, sleep and refuse to eat. I want to tell you how much I miss you and love you.

I'm not at all trying to hurt you because I'm still in love with you. I want you to be happy with me... but then I get a harsh feeling in my stomach; it twists and turns, like I need to vomit. It does this because I know you've made up your mind and are moving thousands upon thousands of miles away to be with this new guy. I can't stand the thought of you with someone else... how can you do this to me? I did everything you wanted and treated you exactly how you wanted. Can't you see that you were in the wrong? My friends see it. Your friends see it. Everyone I've talk to has seen it. I can only imagine what's going through your head as you probably tell people lies about why we broke up in the first place.

I can't fathom what you were thinking about when you decided it was okay for you or your friends to prank call me 3 times. I just don't know what to do anymore. I miss you so much. I'm still in love with you and it hurts because all I can think about are the happy times we had.

feels like I am shaking a dead body when I msg you.. and then you answer.. like a dead body "I'm alright."
HOW THE HELL ARE YOU ALRIGHT??? I wanna be alright too.. dammit..

today i felt so weird and its nearly 1 month now we being apart from each other, Saturday i watched Jim Carrey Yes Man movie, even him self took 3 dam years to recover from a divorce...and this weird feeling of calm and finally can sleep more then 2 hours...does this means i finally getting over you? i dont know how will i be if you come back to me? hmm or maybe ill back to square one in few more days? like getting lost in this love maze..i really wonder how are you doing now and your facebook so quiet and empty..are you suffering like i do? do you wanted to be back with me again so bad?....please God release me from this torment..

PUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA What? Seriously? You are kidding right? You want to do what? PUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh Horsey.. ya gotta share!!

I'll be your prize if you want ;)

STOP FLIRTING GAHHHHHHHH - control yourself woman!! Only gonna get myself hurt :(

Well, we talked, you didn't entirely throw me away. We're just on a "break". Not sure what that means. Still, we changed our relationship statuses to "single", and I would've rather changed it to "it's complicated". But, I know that you love me, and are in love with me, and I know that you're going through something. Hopefully, through all of this, we'll have a better chance together in the future.

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Well, we talked, you didn't entirely throw me away. We're just on a "break". Not sure what that means. Still, we changed our relationship statuses to "single", and I would've rather changed it to "it's complicated". But, I know that you love me, and are in love with me, and I know that you're going through something. Hopefully, through all of this, we'll have a better chance together in the future.

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good luck dude... im in the same boat as you

Sorry my ex, for making you love me and then breaking your heart. I hope you know that not a day goes by without me feeling guilty.

so you respond to me AND open up dialog... is this just a game.. arrrghh.. friday is a loooong way away.. but then I can see if you will meet me...

im having fever today, those days you will always taking care of me but now all done by my own self....going back to sleep during lunch time later and i wish i will never wake up...

I dread the mornings now.. I have to wake up tp that pain all over again.. its not going away.. I pray for the night to come so I can have vodka, then finish myself off with a sleeping pill.. if I dont take that I will only wake up in 3 hours and cry because I miss you.. why has no one else ever affected me this way? maybe because it was always me who left, because I was always better off without them..I will never be better off without you.. and I think if I ask you point blank today if you love me, you will say yes.. and I believe you do.. I think..maybe..I miss you so much.. and I still love you as much as I ever did.. <3

After all the love and affection you showed me, how could you suddenly go so cold?? If you loved me, why weren't you willing to talk things through with me? I love you and miss you every day...especially at night when you don't call me anymore. I can't imagine you don't miss me too... why don't you pick up the phone you heartless, prideful fool?? I want to patch things up and love each other again. Why won't you give us another chance?

I hate that I still compare every girl I go out with to you. The biggest thing I miss was the fireworks we had in the beginning and I am afraid I will not have that with anyone else in the future.

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Sorry my ex, for making you love me and then breaking your heart. I hope you know that not a day goes by without me feeling guilty.

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I forgive you but what are you doing in Europe?

hahahah HG lol

Jesus Karen you are like a ****ing yo-yo and you are doing my head in

Argh, again! Seriously, enough with you and weird dreams including you! I saw a dream about you where you didn't look like yourself and with imaginary boyfriend, and yet I woke up with bad mood. Why?

Today is particularly hard. I went to sleep thinking about you, woke up the same. I remember all the beautiful moments we shared but that inevitably leads to the darker and more hurtful times. Talking to you these days is so strange, I want to forget you and remove you from my life, but how can I do that to you when you were my everything? The loneliness is starting to set in, when I go home and realize that there is no one there waiting for me, when I crave the touch of someone else, to hold and laugh just so I can not think of you. How did we become like this? It wasn't even last year that we thought we'd be together for the rest of our lives. At your cousins' wedding where we snuck glances at each other and smiled knowing that one day it would be us on the altar.

I wish I could tell you about my dream.. we were in a room.. and both of us had completely different identities (sounds funny now that I type it) but it was still us, and all the feelings were there, and nothing outside that door mattered..I guess maybe thats what is was about all along.. maybe thats what my dream was trying to tell me..that if it wasnt for what was outside that door, everything would still be the same...

I knew it was the time that I usually get up.. even in my sleep I could feel the pain starting..but I pushed it away.. pushed it hard.. and stayed in that dream with you.. just for a few more minutes...

im having doubts about whether or not I should tell you how I feel......

No REGRETS! I did what I did. You did what you did. I hope you find happiness in yourself soon. You need it. Miss you. Bye.

It's been days since you texted me. Days since you thought it was appropriate to allow your friends to prank call me. I really want to text you and find out what you're up to. Everything in my heart wants to know but my head knows better. The more I know, the more hurt I get. I'm still losing weight; I just have no desire to eat. I try to void out all thoughts of you by hanging with my friends, almost, EVERY DAY. But in the end, I come home to the same empty room. I immediately look at the same queen sized bed and don't see you there. I look over at my laptop you used and don't see you playing your games. It seems like I'm breaking down again. I have tear filled nights consistently and I don't get why. It's so quiet in here. My friends are starting to notice a change and feel horrible for me. They want to help by telling how awful you are but they didn't know you like I know you. I miss you. I love you. I still care for you. Always and forever. F*ck.

So we skyped for the first time in a month last night. You helped me with a computer issue and we ended up talking for almost 2 hours. Did you feel how the chemistry flowed...did you notice the steady flow of flirting? Ok, I'll admit it was mostly me flirting to begin with, but you didn't let the conversation end, you smiled and joked back with me. We briefly spoke about our relationship because it casually got brought up, but I refused to let it go there just yet...I didn't want to spoil a moment of happiness between us. I can tell that you still care, but I'm also starting to see that change to maybe just a friendship and I hate that. I hate that you don't look at me with that soft warm smile and i know that your heart is warm with joy because of me at that moment. You claimed that you still care about me and you're adamant about not dating that new girl you're hanging out with. You also said that you "are in no way attracted to her". I feel a little bad for her, because what I can gather she seems to like you. But maybe that's what you need...you need someone to try and date you for you to realize that you only want me and the issues we had were minor and we can overcome them. It's interesting that you are planning to come to my brother's open house this weekend...it'll be the first time we've seen each other in two months and you claim that you're not nervous about it at all. That pisses me off...it pisses me off that you aren't torn to pieces about our relationship like clearly I am...hell you aren't on some open forum pouring your heart out on a frequent bases. Seriously...f you. But you're a guy and I've heard that as a guy and the one that wanted out it takes about 6 to 12 months for you to start to reflect and/or regret your decision. For women it's 2 to 4. I'm closing in fast and I can tell you that with each day it gets a little easier. That brings us to the middle of the fall for you to want to get back together. We'll see what happens I suppose. You've also said that we can talk about things...just not for a while...again I'm thinking middle of Fall that'll happen.. Maybe it's time that you need, but I'm not sure if I can hold on much longer. I'm also not sure if some of the things I let you get away with in the past I'll let fly again. I don't want empty promises....I want change and I want a fresh start.

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It's been days since you texted me. Days since you thought it was appropriate to allow your friends to prank call me. I really want to text you and find out what you're up to. Everything in my heart wants to know but my head knows better. The more I know, the more hurt I get. I'm still losing weight; I just have no desire to eat. I try to void out all thoughts of you by hanging with my friends, almost, EVERY DAY. But in the end, I come home to the same empty room. I immediately look at the same queen sized bed and don't see you there. I look over at my laptop you used and don't see you playing your games. It seems like I'm breaking down again. I have tear filled nights consistently and I don't get why. It's so quiet in here. My friends are starting to notice a change and feel horrible for me. They want to help by telling how awful you are but they didn't know you like I know you. I miss you. I love you. I still care for you. Always and forever. F*ck.

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Maybe you should get some new bedding and sheets. That might help to make it easier to go to bed. Maybe even rearrange your room so it's different than the last time she was there. I've found that by moving things around since he was here has helped me just a little. Hang in there! It does get better....... you'll probably think about her for a really long time, but the memories will fade and the pain will lessen. You'll live through this and come out strong because of it. :)

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It's been days since you texted me. Days since you thought it was appropriate to allow your friends to prank call me. I really want to text you and find out what you're up to. Everything in my heart wants to know but my head knows better. The more I know, the more hurt I get. I'm still losing weight; I just have no desire to eat. I try to void out all thoughts of you by hanging with my friends, almost, EVERY DAY. But in the end, I come home to the same empty room. I immediately look at the same queen sized bed and don't see you there. I look over at my laptop you used and don't see you playing your games. It seems like I'm breaking down again. I have tear filled nights consistently and I don't get why. It's so quiet in here. My friends are starting to notice a change and feel horrible for me. They want to help by telling how awful you are but they didn't know you like I know you. I miss you. I love you. I still care for you. Always and forever. F*ck.

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I feel the same way. Have lost 4 pounds in 4 days... can't sleep at night. Heart aches when I'm not out with friends. Still in denial about everything. Torture.

As I'm typing this, I want to wake up tomorrow in the same mood I'm right now.

Man I don't know if you truly loved me. It doesn't matter anymore. What matters it's that you a troubled woman who seriously need help. Your insanity almost cost me a lot. Dear I truly loved you. You were my entire world, but I think that you were not healthy for me. Anyway you are no longer worth for me to spend my time typing this kind of things.

Happy I met you though. I had a great time with you. Too bad we were not a match. What I learned from this make me feel like a real man. I can talk with people about relationships and have this really troublesome breakup experience I had to share. I will be very happy to help anyone with it.

Take care and see you around (maybe)

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It's been days since you texted me. Days since you thought it was appropriate to allow your friends to prank call me. I really want to text you and find out what you're up to. Everything in my heart wants to know but my head knows better. The more I know, the more hurt I get. I'm still losing weight; I just have no desire to eat. I try to void out all thoughts of you by hanging with my friends, almost, EVERY DAY. But in the end, I come home to the same empty room. I immediately look at the same queen sized bed and don't see you there. I look over at my laptop you used and don't see you playing your games. It seems like I'm breaking down again. I have tear filled nights consistently and I don't get why. It's so quiet in here. My friends are starting to notice a change and feel horrible for me. They want to help by telling how awful you are but they didn't know you like I know you. I miss you. I love you. I still care for you. Always and forever. F*ck.

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u ok?? plse answer msgs on fb.. I care!!

I hate it that I end up thinking about you when you contact me. I'd hate it even more if you never did.

That is so ****ed.

starting to act and feel a little more like me again.. but then, I'm afraid to.. if you think I'm ok will you feel that its ok to just escape? (only you know what that means) .. even at the end you said you wouldnt do that.. if you could only know how much I truly love you.. and I will, always and forever, just like I promised, but I guess you dont...

man its getting harder and harder to keep the no contact up, been at it for 2 weeks and its driving me insane. im still holding on but only by a thread. problem is that my escape from reality trick is the same as hers and we used to escape from reality together so looks like im shit outta luck

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Maybe you should get some new bedding and sheets. That might help to make it easier to go to bed. Maybe even rearrange your room so it's different than the last time she was there. I've found that by moving things around since he was here has helped me just a little. Hang in there! It does get better....... you'll probably think about her for a really long time, but the memories will fade and the pain will lessen. You'll live through this and come out strong because of it. :)

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I may do that sometime soon. I still have some of her stuff lying around my room -- mostly bags of clothes that she didn't want. She asked if I could drop them off at a donation center. I said I would but I just haven't wanted to do anything really. Everything is still rocky and I'm still having episodes every once in a while. I have my ups and downs but mostly downs. Of course, I still think about her but it's starting to get less painful... kind of. I learned some new information from a mutual friend. Well, not really mutual, as this friend is one of my best and she just happen to befriend my ex as well. She's already clearly stated that she cares and loves me first; also thinks that what my ex did to me was horrible and doesn't agree with it but said she saw it coming considering how fast we took things.

She thinks my ex is just someone who "goes wherever the wind takes her". She says that she saw how unhappy we both apparently were but my ex really went about it in a bad way. She also told me that one night, my ex, her and I went downtown. I went with a group of friends to a club and they went together to a different one. She says she was hardcore flirting with other guys. I thought it was ironic because that night, we met up at local food joint and when my ex walked in, she immediately started accusing me of flirting with other girls. I didn't. I don't flirt with other girls if I'm in a relationship. I hardly talk to girls as it is and all my friends who were with me could vouch for me. Now I know why I was instantly accused -- she was guilty and thought she was right in what she was doing. So, trying to shift the blame on me. Ugh. I need a strong drink. :upset: