3 more days... god please tell me Im not wasting my time and energy
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3 more days... god please tell me Im not wasting my time and energy
Day 4 of the rest of whatever happens and it feels as though it's been an eternity. I hope you're hurting too.
See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you.
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you.
Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you.
I can't live with or without you.
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.
My hands are tied, my body bruised
She´s got me with nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you.
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you.
I feel deleted. And despite all our words about how this may not be "the end" and that in time we'll find out, and grow meanwhile together and separately... I feel deleted. Was it necessary to delete ALL of the photos of me and you? The kissing photos? I mean.... I was once a big part of your life, right? Like, last week I was. Now, I'm feeling your distance, coldness.... It hurts. But I'm holding my head high, understanding why you're doing what you're doing to the absolute best of my ability. I just don't see -you- grieving. I don't see -you- hurting like you said you were. I see it being easy for you, even though you say it's not. I know that I trust your words and your hurting, however, I don't see it. So I feel utterly alone in this.
2 more days.. at this point I dont know if i really want you back...
recently you told me "i'm always with you, no matter what, no matter how".. I smiled.. and cried.. because I think I knew you were leaving..why did you say that?? when now you dont even want to talk to me.. (oh god I'm losing it again)
HOW COULD YOU DELETE THAT PIC??? you HAD to know how much it would hurt me.. is that what you wanted? if not, how could you do it????????DAMN YOU!!! :''''(
its a power play on his part. dont react to it and it will drive them insane. my girlfriend deleted about 4 pictures of me but left up all the rest of the ones where we were together in
too late for that valuable info... I completely freaked out and sent him a crazy msg.. dont even remember what it said.. thats when we stopped talking completely..Quote:
Originally Posted by Annex [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
well in any case thats not necessarily a bad thing. you can think of it this way.
Why did he do it.
it means your still in his head. that was just a test what he did, sure you failed that one but granted he will give you another some time down the track, its just a matter of staying in control.
Seriously WTF
I give up I really do.
You send me a text on Monday night and tell me you'd like us to get back together again
On Tuesday night you sent me a text saying you have a lot of thinking to do so I said well if you are interested let me know
On Wednesday you accept an invite to a work event at my work in a couple of weeks time and say you would like to go and thanks for the invite
Tonight you decided you no longer want to reply to my texts that having anything in them to do with us.
Edited to add FFS!! And then you text me to say you can't text me because you are at a function ???? How does that work??? But you will see me on the 17th .. you are taking passive aggresive to a whole new level of ****ed up
FML what is going on in that head of yours?
Actually what is going on in my head I'm not even sure I want to get back with you so how about we just leave it at the NC that was going so well
i meet you yesterday and you treat me like a complete stranger no hug or kiss or even hold my hands anymore.....it really hurt me a lot..it really do..i almost pass out when you acted like that to me. But from your eyes i can see glacier of tears is coming out but you held it back and keep strong. Things you do is more harder then i can imagine....i can see no more ring on your right hand....after 4 years of being together we ended up like this? You really shocked when you saw me and at the same time you are happy too...but treating me like a complete stranger is really killing me ..my heart shattered on the ground now...i try to cried so hard but no more tears coming out anymore. When i kissed you in the car spontaneously and you put down your head to hide that your tears is falling down as you drove away from me slowly...how could you choose your family now over me even after 4 years you told me you will marry me and wont leave me no matter what happen...omg my tears is falling down now...please god give me strength to pull my other life to move on...living half a live now im totally blind in the dark i cant see anything now..please god help me....
I just need to talk to you.. but I know I cant.. even if I did I would only get an ice cold response.. so u didnt have time for fb or anything else.. looks like actually the only thing u didnt have time for was me.. what a beautiful poem.. wish I could comment.. wish I could see the deeper meaning.. everything with you always has much deeper meaning.. I guess I realized that after you pointed out a couple things.. then I started seeing the rest.. god.. if only I had known at the time.. everything would be different now..why didnt you give me that chance? you KNOW how different you are..I was just starting to understand everything.. and you shut me out.. who will ever try harder than I did? "Cause everything is never as it seems".. what does that mean?
maybe I need to take a nap if sleep will come.. I'm feeling sick.. partially from too much vodka last night, and partially because I know you are on fb right now.. and nothing to say to me.. or did you say it? was it the poem? what good is it doing me to even try to think about it.. you're not gonna talk to me... GOD I wish I could say all this to you...
It's been a month but you are still everywhere. I can't live without you. I know you moved on but I just can't accept it. I want you back... i need you back... Just give me, us, one chance. Let me show you I can be the man for you. Let me show you I can take care of you. Let me show you how much I love you. The more I try to forget you the more I think about you. Please baby, hear me out. Dump this douche... I'm the one for you...
this is going to be the longest 4 hours of my life................
AT LEAST ****ing respond... come on you at least owe me that
can you really be this coldhearted.... i hope you find happiness... because Im NOT going to be dragged down into hell with you!!!!
i have to let go is it? why would you even say good bye to me? you wanted me to wait for you?
dont wait.. you cant..Quote:
Originally Posted by kamazaki [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I wish I had never responded to your stupid message about us getting back together. I feel like I'm back to where I was two weeks ago and didn't sleep at all last night
Why just throw me a line of hope and then just ignore me for the next two weeks until we meet. That is just so screwed, well tough because I'm not waiting for you to decide what you want.
blah blah blah
hmm i know i cant..but what else could i do? if i push her to hard she will break but if i let her go will she come back to me? i didnt do anything wrong all this 4 years ..loyal and loving her with full heart. Hope this quote is right ( if we love her let her go and if she love you she will come back to you )..Quote:
Originally Posted by Purrzzzzzz [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
yes, its right... but you cant sit around and waste your life for something that is most likely not going to happen...Quote:
Originally Posted by kamazaki [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
i did try to see her and even beg and dammit i even cried..i stripped down my armor of ego and fall on my knees ...shit love will always hurt we all know this but still ..Quote:
Originally Posted by Purrzzzzzz [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I know.. and believe me, I know the pain you are in.. I am as well.. but sometimes the only thing we can do is let go... I did stupid and foolish things too.. it just drives them further away...Quote:
Originally Posted by kamazaki [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I wish I could just tell you good night... I love you sooooo very much... if I could just hear that again I would be ok.. maybe I will never be ok again... I MISS you!! I miss everything... so I guess I can only say it here.. so you will never know :'( :* :* :* these are only for you.. just like always :* :* :* see u soon... god.. I wish that was true...this is the only way I can deal with it...
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and you will never even hear any of these.. even though you have my password... I will never understand why you did this to us....
I miss you and love you.
Party it up and get it out of your ****in system.
Learn from all the mistakes your about to make
THEN once your done being an idiot,
Call me and we'll work on this and be mature.
Thanks purrzzzzz i wish we could drink vodka and cry and laugh out our sweet memories together ...we did the best for them but never best enough i guess..Quote:
Originally Posted by Purrzzzzzz [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Is it really over? I just can't seem to let you go, I wonder if you think of me. If you even regret this at all... Everyday I'm hoping you'll show up at my door, or call me or text me saying that you made a mistake and miss me. Why is it so hard to face the fact that you don't want me anymore? I felt like we had something different, something strong, something solid. Our love for each other was so overwhelming, your love for me was. Where the hell did it go? Where did you go? I miss you so much, and it hurts like hell. I can't seem to find a way to live without you.. I was hoping it was the same for you. You know what hurts the most? Sitting here, thinking that you might come back, and then realising that you're probably reliefed it's over, hanging out with your friends and having the time of your life, with no regrets at all. My life with you means everything, that's why i'm slowly dying here.
Everyone says i shouldn't contact you, i should let you miss my presence, the only thing that does for me is creating an illusion that you'll come back in a week or two. But then again i think that you'll just move on, i can't move on. I thought and still believe that this is true love... And they say true love comes back. Why haven't you yet? I just want to tell you i love you, i miss you, and ireally need you in my life. You were my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my soulmate and my future husband.. What happened to all our plans? :/ Please call me soon, or change your mind. I'm still the same girl you fell in love with..
JUST get OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!
We are over now and you still talk to that guy that i dont like when we were still going out...
It hurts even that we're over.. but i know that no one can give u as much love as i have given u. It's your loss. Even your parents like me. They ask me to go into your house and talk when i was only supposed to just go in and drop off all the old cards, photos and everything that we shared together.
Luckily that you aint home at that time. Good luck with your new spark, u and i know that it will never be the same.
She's not my friend so delete her, hm? Didn't you say the same about ____ and ____? What happened there? Did they side with me even though they were your friends first? Yeah, that's what I thought.
to this day its still mind boggling how a man can treat women like shit, i just dont understand. but to the contrary when a man does take care of his women and gives her everything in the world it turns out that she dosnt want that either and breaks it off. at least thats what happened to me
funny old world isnt it
The same applies to me. Awesome feeling, isn't it?Quote:
Originally Posted by Annex [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
not long before you left me you said it makes you happy when I smile.. how can I smile now? the one I love doesnt even want to talk to me..every other person on the planet is now more important than me.. did u forget? when you were so depressed.. THEY WERENT THERE!! I WAS!!! I was the ONLY ONE.. how can they be more important now? who was it that made you feel better all those times? where were they then? they didnt care about you!! I DID!!!
how can I be last?? how?? :'''''''''(
I love you.. I love you .. I love you.. I thought I was ok but I'm not.. I LOVE YOU.. I feel so pathetic.. I love you sooo very much <3
Sigh ....
Finally decided this is all a crock of crap.
You were the one that ****ed this relationship up when you decided to put yourself on a dating site so why do I even care that you want to try again? Seriously you are really not worth it.
We all make mistakes, granted, but us being back together would just be another one. Really you're not as good as you think you are and I know I can do a lot better, so lets just stop dicking about. You get on with your life and I'll get on with mine.
And no I don't care that you are hurting because I ended it, that is your pride hurting so deal with it. You should have thought about the consequences before you did what you did, no point crying about it now. And yes I do love the irony that this is hurting you way more than it is me.
And why is that? Because you lost someone that always treated you right, cared about you, loved you and would have done anything for you and now that has gone. Whereas I have lost someone that was selfish, arrogant, indifferent and who betrayed me and didn't appreciate what they had.
Your loss not mine.
I loved you, I cared about you deeply, we had some great times and I don't regret being with you but it's over and I've moved on
sometimes you would come to me and you would be sooo depressed.. almost wanting to give up on life.. and after spending an hour with me you would be laughing and joking.. and other stuff ;) and you would be full of hope again.. one you said that you were feeling bad because I made you feel better every time.. and what did you ever do for me? I dont know if I told you.. that was it.. I loved being the only one that made you happy.. that made me happy..
I guess now I am the only one that cant... I dont understand why you let this happen...
Hey dude, guess what? You ****ed this one up. Seriously. You're probably sitting in some strip club tonight boozing with your lame-ass stripper-loving friend, some skanky girl in your lap thinking you're the maaaan, and you *don't even know yet* what a massive mistake you made. You still don't know yet what a mother-****ing prize you gave up. You don't know, and you may not even know for awhile - but you'll figure it out. You're a smart cookie. And then you'll realize the woman who loved you, was committed to you, tried to anticipate your every want and need - you threw her away, and left her for some other guy to snap up. You don't even know how many guys were waiting in the wings. But one of these days, you're going to realize... and by then it will to be too late.
i dont like these butteflys in my stomach