so you got my letter... now what? Are you that much of a bitch you wont even respond?
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so you got my letter... now what? Are you that much of a bitch you wont even respond?
So last night went really well. We talked for almost 2 hours and I think neither of us wanted to get off the phone at the end. Things were casual, light hearted..fun even. When we started talking about our situation things got a little awkward and you said that you still aren't in a place to be with anyone right now but you haven't put the possiblity of us getting back together out of the picture. I responded by saying that I had no intentions of us getting back together this summer, but I was more wanting to know where you were with things. I'm not going to lie..that part was hard to hear. You were insistent on me using this time to meet other people and explore what else might be out there. I finally had to tell that I was..so much so that I had met someone. But I had to end things about two weeks in because I was still in love with you. Ironically...the same thing happened to you. One thing lead to another and I said.."I don't know, I guess I just miss you." And you said "I miss you too..probably more than I'd like to admit to myself and I think about you all the time." So why are we not together? You couldn't really answer that question. We aired a lot of things and you told me you still love me and that you still care. It was just really really really good to have such a positive conversation with you about everything. Finally you said "You know what, after talking things through you've really helped me look at things in a different way and with clarity. I'm beginning to believe that sometimes you have to have faith that what your heart is telling you is right and you have to be willing to take the risk that it'll all work out." I had a THANK YOU JESUS moment but I'm not going to get wrapped up in the moment. Things may change still and you need to truly believe what you say. That's why I'm in no hurry to get back together. In a few months I think we'll both have healed from our wounds and will be better people from our experience and maybe we'll give it a second try. So thank you for being receptive and thank you for being the person that I fell in love with. Sometimes we have to fall down to learn...and sometimes the tears are worth it.
Listen you. Thank you for the updates about our son. Thank you for meeting me 1/2 way now instead of me coming to your city all the time. Thank you for being a good mom to our son. But please STOP asking me about whether I am upset, or happy, or doing ok, or who I am seeing, or what I am doing. Its NONE of your business. You are causing major road blocks for my recovery. Heres the deal: I am happy you are happy. I am happy you moved on within days of our breakup. I am happy being single now. I have accepted my place in my life now and I am living my life. I dont NEED to be with someone like you do. I love myself now. And I am never, ever going back to who I was. You should read this forum. Might give you some insight into peoples feelings since you didnt consider mine, not even once, in the last 6 months. I am doing fine, thank you, and I am ok.
It's been three weeks since you dumped me, and I haven't heard a peep out of you. I thought by now I'd have given up hope, but I am apparently more optimistic than I imagined. Your silence is getting harder to bear... I wish I didn't care so much about what you think of me and what you are up to. I still can't bring myself to believe you don't love me anymore, or that you don't miss me. I still can't figure out how things changed so quickly. I wish you'd call and tell me our break-up was all a big mistake, and you'll do whatever is necessary to have me back in your life again.
I am so stupid to hold out hope for this...
So I texted (Yeah, I know guys...) just to see how you were about three hours ago and you still havent replied. I guess the arm of friendship you offered a few weeks back were just words to make yourself feel better.
Of course I still have feelings for you but I don't even want you to take me back, I just want things to be cool between us. But now you're putting me in the same bracket as the rest of your 'casual exes' and acting like I'm a total stranger.
Oh, and thanks for missed call at 2.30am on Sunday morning, I'm surprised you didnt text to say you dialled my number by accident...
today im officially letting you go my dear baby.....after a hard cried together and your promises that you made towards your mom...finally i truly understand your pain is much bitter to bare rather then an orphan like me...if you choose to be with me, for sure your mom will fall sick and leaving your family behind is a huge risk...its ok for you to feel scared baby at least we tried and so happy for four years...thank you for showing me what real love is...im so happy when being around you baby..now i hope you can find peace with your family again and hope they will treat you much better then before...and for me now forcing my self to move on with my life ....learn to live half a life without you...hope our fate to be together near future will be much better luck next time...please take good care of your self okay..and if you were not meant for me hope the future guy will love you more then i do...love you always and forever....good bye..:P
i made a new video for you... I know you cant be with me but want too... this sucks.....
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Can I borrow your bullwhip tongue?
I cant belive you have done this to me after everything I have done for you and even u called me first when u had to go to hosp for ure car crash u called me first. I thought i was a bit more important to u than how you are now treating me and if you have no responsibilities now then boy you are not gonna be in our new babies life. what so you can say how you want ure space the spark is gone what if u get bored of baby no no nO I hate you for how you have treated me and make me feel so hurt :'( ure just like your father. lets just hope the baby is not a boy or it might end up like u 2 ,
i have tried anything possible to get you back but what you have promised to your mom is cannot be undone, so please do take care of your self.....i love you more then everything in this world hope near future we will be back together baby..
just wondering why the hell you had to do that.. didnt you know what it would do to me? I guess its possible that you didnt.. all these little things you are doing, did you think I forgot you? is that what its about? are you TRYING to get my attention? so far I havent been able to forget you..not for a minute.. but I am trying so hard.. then you do this shit and I am back to square one again.. I almost msgd you today.. but it wasnt gonna be like the last one, the last time you did this.. I dont even remember what I said, but I am sure it was pathetic.. u know what I was gonna say this time? F*CK YOU!!!!! I never dreamed I would want to say that to you... but I almost did..
this is for you today.. its so hard to not send it to you.. so maybe if I pretend that you would follow me here and find it.. it will have to be good enough...
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should i die 1st then live again ..??? this recovery mode makes me so sick..not eating properly, not sleep properly...chest so much with pain and more pain.....
When you get help for your other problems can you get them to have a look at your passive agressive tendancies whilst they are at it?
Don't really get the point in you asking me to keep in touch only for you to then go and ignore me when I do. Just saying :)
I'm over you. Done. Have fun with your friend when she comes to visit next month. I hope having her sleep overnight with you is totally worth the cost of our relationship. She'd have to be one hell of a girl to make a few nights with her (on the couch or otherwise) worth 8 months with me.
I feel like crying... why are you stringing me along... :(
Hey baby, I'm sorry i didn't respond to your text the other day, it was just too hard and I felt like I would be too vunerable if I replied.. I guess you ment in a friendly way (like i thought) cause i haven't heard from you since, I still hope that you'll realise that a life without me isn't that great after all. I still miss you and love you.. I think about you every second of the day. Memories keep popping up where ever I go. We've been everywhere together, do these places remind you of me too? I'm having a hard time not texting you and talking to you, every instict tells me I should call you and tell you how much I love you, but that will push you further away, so I know I have to be strong.. I'm hoping it will help me move on with my life, if you don't want me back.
People are talking and they are telling me that they've seen you around, having fun and acting like you don't care about what has happened between us. I'm hoping that's not true, that you still think of me and miss me like i miss you.. Sometimes I swear I can feel that you're thinking of me..
Please call me soon, i miss your voice and i miss everything about you..
Sincerely, your girl - always no matter what.
So you said you'd call me soon. I'm not sure what soon means to you, but it's been three days. I guess I wasn't really expecting you to call until this weekend. But I can't help but feel like you are about to let me down. I really hope that isn't the case because our conversation last time was so promising. Clearly we still love each other and clearly there is still that spark there. But I HAVE to let you be the one to make the decision to contact me and more so to get back together. If I push you to make the decision to get back together I fear we'll be in the same place that got us where we are now. So I'll just hope and pray that you'll call and it'll be a good conversation and slowly you'll start calling more frequently until we're back together. It's so hard to tell myself to keep moving on when every part of me still wants you. But I know that I have to...I know that I'm allowed to...I just can't. Not when every guy that I start to show interest in turns out to not to be you. My heart won't let me fall for anyone else....so please...call soon.
It's getting harder, im afraid you might never contact me again.... I miss you so damn much, it hurts so bad.. I can't believe that it's actually possible to stop loving someone, especially when you have something like we had. I'm guessing that has to be the case of why you broke up, even though you said you still loved me. I never stoped loving you, even though you've hurt me in several ways. I guess i thought we had true love, a love that would never die. I know that even if i find someone new, you'll always have that special place in my heart, and i'll always remember you and i'll probably always love you.. I guess a part of me wants to think that you still think of me in the same way as before, that you still love me, miss me, and want to contact me as much i want to contact you.. but i know thats not the truth, and it hurts.
I dont know what to do... i feel like dying.
i have to think its for your own good...and your happiness..for me to sacrificed for the last time and for your mom sake...some of my stupid friends or easy to called enemy under the blanket tell crap story about you leaving me for another guy ?? wtf ?? but you cried when you said its for your mom sake not some guy bullshit story..and you cried harder when you said you will never forget me forever and said still love me ...you cried like a baby and i have to hug you to hard for almost half an hour...dont worry baby i wont believe their shit since from the last time they all envy of us ...why am i so stupid to believe all this shit! im sorry for doubting you as you not even doubt me with any other girls ..
me too bro me too...but we have each other here to support each other right? so now please hang on aite...Quote:
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me2, we have to be strong and keep moving on.. :(
i cant get it out of my head ..the statement of you going out with that stupid guy is not acceptable at all..i should have kill my self that day rather then living with more pain in my chest arghhhh
Good luck trying to find somebody else to put up with your thickheaded bitchiness. you are just like your good for nothing dad, an a**hole prick who kicked you out, and who was there to take you in when that happened, me and my family, who was there when you got kicked off the cheer leading team, me! who was there for you when you found out your niece had cancer, me! who took you to the hospital every weekend to see her, me! you say that i never did anything for you but i did so much, and not just those kind of things either, i told you i love you everyday and i meant it from the bottom of my heart, so maybe i never did stuff the exact way you wanted it, but it shouldnt be that way, you cant have everything the way you want it. you say that i am the a**hole, when really you are. i hope you are happy with your new guy, not. karma will come around sooner or later and i wont be there to pick up the pieces.
I don't know what to do. I feel as if you're replacing me, rejecting me, pushing me away, using me..... You haven't contacted me in two days, and I keep telling myself not to get my hopes up that you'll talk to me today. All I can do is keep being strong, keep doing things for myself, and forget about pursuing you. Because honestly... You make excuses for why you don't talk to me or want me around. I know you lie to yourself so that your lies to others seem honest and you won't feel as guilty. You're a ****ing liar. Sometimes, I hope you -won't- contact me, just so I won't have to feel happy again about you actually talking to me, and then feel depressed about the silent days after.
Haven't heard from you in 5 days and doing fine. I can't wait for you to be out of my mind forever. I hope once you finally get your shit together and realize that I might have been worth the effort you come back, just so I can turn around and reject you.
****, 5 days and I'm already feeling great. I guess you just weren't for me.
Just because of youf damn mom having to interfere with everything, i had to call you today.... I was doing well with two weeks of no contact, and now i'm set back to day 1 again. It's been hell today, and I litteraly just feel like dying. I'd probably cry myself to sleep tonight.. Thanks for being an ass, breaking my heart over and over again. It hurts cause i still love you no matter what..
I just linked you a lovesong in your inbox on facebook, and i see that you're still signed on... still you say nothing to me. I feel like im going to throw up.
I feel so stupid........ why do i do these things??
So I woke up this morning to see that you had contacted me over facebook. You thought I was online, but it was just my phone's setting. I don't want to read into that but maybe you were missing me last night or maybe you were just curious as to why I was up so late. But it is promising that you are for whatever reason reaching out...even the slightest bit. I wrote you back this morning telling you that I wasn't online and that I had a wedding to go to this afternoon. Let me just tell you that it is the most uncomfortable and awkward thing to attend a wedding when you only know the bride and no one else. Not to mention when you are going through a break up. It's also extremely hard to watch a couple so clearly in love with each other and all I can think about is that should be you and I. I about lost it when they played our song tonight. To add insult to injury the couple that sat down beside me (I was sitting by myself) asked if I had snagged anyone yet. I said with my best fake smile...no. They proceeded to go on about how their niece focused on her career and now she is 35 and stressing out that she's missed her chance at love. Seriously....did I seriously need to hear that bull crap? You were supposed to go to that wedding with me. You were supposed to be my support...but instead you had to be a moron and screw everything up for apparently no damn reason. Thanks for that.
Wow. It's been three days and you haven't contacted me. I guess all that "extra time" you said you had this week went somewhere else. Probably to that chick and her friends you "hit it off with". Because obviously you had no time to send me a text. **** you. That's all I have to say. **** you. And I sure as hell am not going to be the first to break the silence. That's on you.
I sent you that song and you didn't say anything to me, i feel so stupid and the pain is just too much. I can't sleep and my stomach is like it's turned inside out.. I wonder what you thought after you heard it, you probably felt sorry for me and i guess all your feelings have vanished.. Oh, the pain.....
I'm so embarrassed, I dont get why i had to call you yesterday also.... 2 weeks I stayed away from you, but then your mother ruins everything. i just want to die
Hey U always treated me the worst way. First you make me your second option then suddenly you said u loved me. Then what, u had a boyfriend ye and u said u would break up with him several times so that i loved u, i went out with you, my kisses and hugs were all for you. Now your ex-boyfriend isn't the one u break up. It's me. you played with my heart, broke it like a toy and I don't even hear a sorry, a thank from you. Anyway, I forgave u for all your mistakes and I said we could be friend. However, all the things you are doing now is trying to make up a story where i'm an asshole who tried to steal u from him. You are suck a slu*
I hope you call today...or at least by Tuesday. Tuesday will be one week since we spoke last. If you don't contact me by then I'm afraid that our really good conversation didn't mean as much to you as I thought it did. But it's better to figure that out now instead of jumping back into something and only getting my heart shattered a second time.
PS. I hate that I have a friend that constantly wants to lay into you and even when I tell her of the good conversations all she can do is tell me to move on and that you don't deserve me. Honestly it makes me not want to hang out with her, but at the same time it makes me feel awful about myself for loving you. I want to give us a second chance but I don't want others to assume that I have no self respect by making it easy on you for us getting back together. I hate the head games and I feel like I have to be one step ahead of you and really think about my next course of action right now. I wish it was easy like it was when we first met. sigh.
i felt the same way you did...i guess we cant always get what we want right? i felt the pain you are feeling and i know it hurts so bad ...Quote:
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i lost my pride today for knocking at your apartment again begging you to accept me back....i saw you cried by just looking at me..and it hurt me by seeing you sad and making you cried....why this is the ending for us? its hard for you to choose rite?....im sorry for making you decide this ...for today onwards i will never appear in front of you again..i will leave you alone with your family again...i guess i have to move on with my life alone without you...and its hurts me alot when you said you still love me....oh god why this ia happening to me why why! i should have died last year rather then facing this now!
and please please smile when you think about me....
Hahaha not being rude but your new gf is ugly my ex. My sister and friends (oops) would say who's that ugly woman lols, they felt pity for you. But i feel Pity for her being played on, at least if she's a nice woman, if not ..... Im trying my best to not rude to your new found love. Look, karma will bite you in the ass, and I trust that a fake coward person like you deserve to be with ugly physical looking women, not only that but also ugly heart( ugly inside out) :). Try to enjoy your honeymoon state and be ready for whatever come later. To me, you have 0% to return, remember just swallow it up to your stomach later when you regret. I was just longing to the person I thought you were, not the Poor man that I have heard and seeing. What a pity your parents thought/ think you are their great Son that always got played by the exes while the truth was opposite.
Should I contact you? I am about to break down and do it. I know I shouldn't...but I feel like I'm about to. I was stupid and found your online dating profile. Funny because our profiles both sound very similar. Oh and you totally lied about your height. You also have some thing about your subscription expiring but you weren't sure if you were going to renew it our not. Interestingly enough you told me you were going to cancel it. ....what the hell is that about? I mean, you are allowed to still do it...you are allowed to date other people but I feel like you are still leading me on by saying the things that you are. If you don't want to be with me just fing say it. Just say "I don't want to be with you." Instead of some how twisting it around to be about how I deserve better, I gave more than you did...what the hell ever. I have a god damn choice if I wanted to be in the relationship or not. You are good enough...i want you...stop trying to turn this back around on me. If you don't want me..just fing say it. Instead you tell me you still love me and that you miss me and you PROMISE you'll call soon. I swear to God if you don't call me by Tuesday I really am over this....I'm over it. Do you hear me?....Over the mind games and over you being a douche. You said it was never about wanting to meet other girls but clearly it was. Clearly you are full of s**t.