i could not sleep...i smoke so hard just now and cough out blood...and my chest so painful ..im i fantasising it or its real...
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i could not sleep...i smoke so hard just now and cough out blood...and my chest so painful ..im i fantasising it or its real...
6 days now since you ended it, and 6 days since I've spoken to you. I've had so many conversations with you in my head that I don't know why I haven't figured out we were a bad fit. I think its because you had a nice ass and rack to match, but I do miss the fun we had, and the things we never got to do. Part of me wishes you'll come back, but a growing part of me hopes that I can just get over this trainwreck of a relationship and move on. You made it clear the week before you dumped me you didn't give a shit about my feelings or what I wanted, and you blaming me for why it ended was pretty rediculous.
I need to find someone who is as hot as you are on the outside, and far less ugly on the inside.
im sorry i keep on posting here for so many time....i really miss he so much and i cant bare the pain of holding back and let her go..
don't be sorry Kamazaki-i put this post up so everyone could contact their ex through this post instead of contacting them directly. Post as many times as you want hun!
You think you know everything, don't you? I am so glad that i don't have to listen to your pathetic attempts to try and sound like an intellect in one of our debates. Your a loser. Stop going around telling people that you live in a gorgeous house near the ******ing "water"...PUUUHLEAAAAAAASE...it's a filthy *****ing lake. Your so vain and im through with you!
new one Ames or the one from January still?
its been 27 days since we talked. Im still having a hard time understanding. of all the time we spent together and all the love we shared with eachother, how could you just throw me out and not say anything to me for this long? Do you hurt like I hurt? Just wondering. I didnt do anything to you but love you too much....thats a lot better than your cheating ex. HUMMMMMM.....why was a loving guy like me so easy to forget about? Sure wish i can just forget about everything but I know thats next to impossible. If you dont think of me just a little bit I guess I did something wrong. Or maybe you really dont deserve me. I know im a good guy and I dont need you or anyone else to tell me otherwise. Your hands just wernt big enough to hold my heavy heart.
new one hun! argg!
then your timeline is the same as mine, dated my most recent ex from early feb to early june, sorry to hear that.Quote:
Originally Posted by ames [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I miss her now, and will hate her later.
i just walk 3 kilometer just now and come back to office wet sweating like crazy...i walked in a hot sunny day and my mind non stop thinking of you....saw us in a shop we used to go togehter......im loosing my mind? please god release me from this torment hmmm i could not take this anymore please ....its to painful shit!
Wow, you really are ignoring me. Ouch. And to think I FELL for your ****ing lies. Go have fun with your goddamn friends.
Thanks for your email
I'd have responded ... 6 weeks ago, but now .... nah
i reli cant take it anymore seriously why im so weak and pathetic ..she will hate me more if she found out im so miserable and down like this.. please please its going to be ok.. its going to be ok.. its going to be ok....
i have talk to my friends about my condition now...thanks shin and jessica for supporting me with this move on thing
i so dragging my self to to do everything....tears come along with it on and off..so stress out until back of my head is so painful..i have not sleep for almost a week now..keep waking up in the middle of the night crying holding your cloth tight your smells linger on your pillow and our bed...have to keep up this way since you need to get over me as well......baby i love you!!!!!
You called last night..you actually called. You seemed surprised that I was actually surprised that you called. We talked for about an hour and a half. It was good, we talked about things some more. I asked if you had noticed that the person whom you described that you were looking for on your online profile....you actually described me. You laughed and said yeah I guess I did. I then proceeded to ask if you were in fact dating that girl and you said that no you weren't. I then for whatever reason asked if you were intimate with her. You said you had kissed her but that you regretted it and if you could take it back you would have. You said when you did you instantly realized that it didn't feel right and that she also wasn't as good a kisser as I am... kudos to me ;). I was surprised that I wasn't as upset about that as I thought I would have been. But I guess that's because you realized you didn't want that and that you stopped things between her because you still have feelings for me. So i guess it was a good thing that you did that. She apparently still tries to hang out with you and you think she still has feelings for you. Well you need to break it off with her, you can't be friends with someone when they clearly have romantic feelings towards you and you don't reciprocate. I know this from experience and trust me...I'm not just looking to be just your friend. Which you know and I kow that you reciprocate my feelings on many levels. But overall it was a good conversation. I think we're getting to place where we can start talking about getting back together instead of just talking about general things. But again..I'm not pushing anything. I told you I want you to figure out what is going on in your head. Overall we both agreed that our relationship wasn't bad or broken. So you need to figure out if it's me or something in our relationship that was making you feel this way or if it was something else. That way if we get back together we won't be doing this again. I don't know..it seems promising, but I'm not going to get hooked just yet. I'm still single and you are to. So I can pursue any other opportunities that exist as can you. I just don't want to right now.
today i felt a bit better after a long sleep..had fever last night...manage to drive and buy dinner for my self i felt so weak last nite...hope you are doing well too..have a nice day baby..
i guess today im goin back swallows some pills then sleep...as i can tell if i ever be alone or mind is empty the stupid pathetic emotion will start crawling over in my heart again..
You don't know why you called me, and I don't know why I picked up your call, but I am glad I did. I miss you so much and it was nice to hear your voice again. I could tell you were smiling at some points on the conversation, and you don't know how much i wished i could see that smile of yours again. I have a feeling you are just now realizing how much you lost by giving up on a man who only wanted to love you, take care of you, and make you happy. I will keep telling myself that you cannot make me happy. I have to because I cannot take you breaking heart again. Please let me move in so that I can find the happiness I deserve.
i wish im strong as you bro....Quote:
Originally Posted by 98db [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I'm having a really hard time not looking at past emails from you. You talked about how much you worried about our relationship because you treasured it so much and that you were hopeful for a future between you and I. I just don't get how so much can change in really a short amount of time? All I did was love you and want reassurance that you loved me as much in return. I feel stupid that I love you still so much and am still trying desperately to get back together after you've broken my heart, when you should realize what a moron you are for walking away from us. I still hurt, I'm still sad and I still miss you like crazy. But I'm over waiting, I'm over wondering what you'll decide. I think I need to decide to move on so that at least I'm not stuck in this rut that I've been in. Then and only then, do I think you'll realize what a god damn moron you were for even questioning things. Hell you already know you are but for whatever reason you don't want to get back together just yet. I feel like I'm giving you all the support you need and the benefits of a relationship (minus the physical aspect) without the commitment. It isn't fair to me...and I'm ashamed at myself for letting myself do what I've been doing. I need a hobby and real quick to get my mind and emotions focused on something else. Sigh...how could you say you truly love me and then decide you need time to figure everything out. You asked why I'm so confident that things will work out...I'm confident because I know that you love me and that you realize how good of a match we are and I know the type of person you are. It just sucks for me because this is not how I thought my love life would be. I thought I'd fall for someone that loved me unconditionally and would never question things. Instead I've fallen for someone that needs to mature and grow up and have life experiences before they let themselves believe what we had was real and right. Seriously screw Hollywood and Disney for the fairy tale stories that we've been fed since we were little. It doesn't happen that way...or rarely does.
I don't hate you.
You gave me teenage experiences that I could never ask for. You gave me hope in everything I do. I remember us dreaming and hoping of being someone big and famous. We were so young and so in love. Thank you for giving me that. I’m just so sorry it had to end this way. I guess it’s part of being an adult. I’ll always love you <3
Maybe in 10 years or so, when you’re happily married and have kids, we can sit and have some coffee.
You know, I thought I was getting to the point that I could talk about our break up with just about anyone that asked. Well turns out I can't. I had my yearly physical today and my Doctor asked if I was single and looked at my ring finger. I told him we broke up and he asked with very sympathetic eyes, if I was alright. I had to hold in the tears. He asked me if I cry still. I said yes..sometimes, but it's getting easier. I was taken a back by his questions because I thought he was only going to check how I was physically doing. I guess I didn't realize he was trying to judge how my mental state was. I miss you still even though we are talking now. We're talking, but that doesn't mean it's going to work out. I looked over past emails again and found it interesting that about two years ago I was feeling how I think you are feeling. I was really unsure of how I felt about the relationship and wanted to make sure I loved you enough to spend a life time. It's interesting how now, two years later, we are having that same conversation again. I also found an email where we were addressing you starting to act weird toward me. You acknowledged that you were distancing yourself and you were concerned that I was limiting myself by choosing to be with you. I wonder if the real reason for all of this is if you feel like you aren't good enough. But I guess wondering isn't going to resolve the situation, only giving you space and by moving on. I just wish we could finally get over this lump in the road and move on with our lives.
I can honestly say this. But i have moved on. In fact i feel silly for even pleading with you to come back when you broke up with me ! I realized what i lost a few days ago and that was a self centered, Arrogant, Thoughtless, Immature little girl. Your not even that attractive to me anyways ! And god help who ever manages to fall in love with you, Because at least i wont have to put up with your sh*t. I have no feelings for you anymore except hatred for what you put me through with your games, But you know what ? I would love to thank you for it ! Because you made me such a stronger person, And you turned my love into pure hatred for you, Which has helped me get over you fast and properly. I don't even think about you anymore, In fact I'm talking to and getting to know such a lovely girl who has so much in common. I never even imagined i would be here at this point a week ago, But i am !
Ohh and all of those love letters and cards you sent me through out the relationship, All the photos ? I had the pleasure of shredding them and binning them the other day, It took me along time to even think of doing it, But i did. And i didn't even have a sad feeling about it, In fact i laughed.
Although i won't send this to you, As i am loving my no contact with you and i dont even have your number as i deleted it :), And why would i waste an sms message on you ? You're worth nothing. In fact the mud in my front garden is worth more to me.
Adios looser!
Awesome McRich, awesome. I hope to get where you are soon enough.
I miss you so much tonight. I miss talking to you and hearing your voice each night before I go to bed... I miss everything about you. Even the things that used to drive me crazy. I wish you still loved me and wanted me. I still don't understand what happened, or how things fell apart so quickly. You can't already be over me... can you?
I'm sick of hearing about her,
Katelyn, Katelyn, Katelyn.
Forever My Effing Arse.
Hang in there :)Quote:
Originally Posted by tremolo [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Really if he was worth it he'd sort his crap out and talk to you
here I am back at square 1... god I miss u so much... did nothing but cry today... and I discovered this song... learned it in abt 2 hours... wish u would hear it one day... but u wont... I just have to pretend... here...
[url=http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c4beb9a1a]SingSnap | Memory by Purrzzzzzz[/url]
Oh bugger :( I was hoping things had improved for you as you seem really upbeat on FB and haven't been on here so much postingQuote:
Originally Posted by Purrzzzzzz [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Well you hang in there too and hope it gets better for you soon, which it will
thank u so much... yeah, I try to be as positive as I can in public... the ones who lnow me know what I am going thru though... how are u doing?Quote:
Originally Posted by Horseyguy [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Yeah really good thanks. Things are heaps better for me now.Quote:
Originally Posted by Purrzzzzzz [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Takes a while to realise that nobody is THAT good that they can make your life feel so crap because they are not in it anymore especially given the way she treated me and for the things that she did, and that makes it a heap easier to move on
today i just went for my blood test and will come out in few days, so wanted to tell you this but for sure you will be sad again for me...oh god i how i miss you so much now...waiting like this is killing me every single day waking up with a chest pain ..i wonder how are you doing ..i dare not to open my facebook anymore scared it will hurt me and i will start at square 1 again...
You are so right. Thanks for the reminder :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Horseyguy [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
heart break and waiting is the hardest thing to do..feel like a stuffed chicken in a microwave...god dammit chest pain is still here...i wish to have the adam sandler remote so i can fast forward to ease the pain!!!
Never fails. I go to sleep feeling good about myself. I go to sleep realizing that I can and will find someone else, someone that will put me first over there bad past. I go to sleep telling myself it was your loss when you broke up with me ...cuz it really is. I dont know what happens to those feelings during the night but when I wake up I realize my heart is still broken and that every minute Im not with you is slowly killing me. Id really like to know if you did care so much for me like you said, is this bothering you as much as it is for me? Is this time apart making you stronger while its making me weaker? Its really hard me be to believe you when you said your not a cold hearted bitch. If you wernt you wouldnt of stopped all contact with me. Id really like to know why you did? Did you do it because your pissed at me, or did you do it to help the both of us? I would really like to move on with my life and find someone else to care for that doent tell me shes broken and that I deserve better. I want to be happy again, but if I find someone else Im not going to be able to live and love with the thought of you still im my head. HA and Im still thinking of the day when we will see and talk to eachother again.....cuz i know its going to happen. How are we going to feel then? I wish you just could of understood that I was there for you. I wanted to make you happy and forget about your broken past. Your unhappiness made me unhappy and thats what broke us apart. To bad you didnt talk to me about it sooner.
Thanks ***** for f***ing up my life, i hope you enjoy your new life with the guy you cheated with, i hope you move in with him and the house burns down with you both trapped.
I feel stupid for forwarding that email to you. It was from two summers ago, but I thought it was interesting because it seemed like I was going through the same things that you are now. I wanted to demonstrate how much alike we are. Now I fear I'm just pushing you away because you haven't responded. But I need to keep realizing that we are broken up. You don't have to do anything...you don't have to contact me. You can ignore me if you feel that's what you want. I need to let it all go and focus on what is going to make me happy...and not you. I need to realize that as much as I'd like to fix things, sometimes things can't be fixed by me. I can only be responsible for my own actions and feelings, no one else's. I think I lost myself a little when I was with you. I pushed and pulled so much to make you who you are today that I lost direction on my own life. Which in turn basically turned me into your mother...god damn it. I've figured out my part in this whole mess...I just wish you'd realize what yours was and come to the conclusion that it's worth fighting for. I can't promise we'll never argue or that I won't be a pain..but you can't promise that either. But I'm okay with that because I wouldn't want to deal with the drama than with anyone else.
I really need to move on..this thought process isn't helping me. Why do I care so much still? It's getting easier, but I still have hope that it'll work out. I need to cut that out.
No matter how much I blamed myself before, I know that everything was not my fault. People have been trying to show me how immature you are/were with me and the relationship. I made some mistakes, but clearly yours were far inappropriate. You were right; you don't deserve me.
Its like you wrote that from my head Confusius